love shouldnt cost a thing

Chapter 5

marisol POV

when i woke up this morning it was light pink everywhere.

lauren hair was all tangled all across my face i took a whiff of it i suddenly had the urge to throw up i unwrapped lauren from around me and flew to the bathroom

i can honestly say ive never seen that much vomit in my life

i sat against the wall nauseated

then there was a knock at the door there standing was my mama in her long white gown and fuzzy boot house shoes. her hair was still in rollers and under her scarf and she had a worried expression on her face

"you ok baby"she asked

" yeah im fine " i lied getting up off the floor but i had to sit right back down because my head was pounding

"mhmm you dont have to lie "

" im just a little sick right now ill be fine " this time making it up all the way up off of the floor

"ok just tell me if you need something. you hungry? " she said

i looked at myself in the mirror i needed to bathe but i also needed some clothes .

i should have a couple hundreds in the car for rainy days ... this is a rainy day

" i just need to shower and i need clothes to go out and look for me some more " i said

" you can wear one of my jogging outfits and the towels are right there in the drawer" she said pointing to the top drawer of the granite sink

"thank you mama " i said

" no problem honey"

i closed the bathroom door and started to take my clothes off while looking in the mirror

i saw scars and bruises of all kinds across my legs and arms and the small incision where derrick cut me at on the inside of my thigh.

i really am messed up i deserve better i was always there as a supportive wife ...why jus why did he have to hurt me like this though.

i was getting frustrated and angry and all types of mixed emotions.

the first time he laid his hands on me shouldve been the last but god why was i so stupid ?!

"marisol you ok in there?"

" im ok mama "

"well open the door so i can give you some clothes to wear "

i walked towards the door and opened it

" thanx again ma"

i said grabbing the clothes from her

"baby you are welcome"

i closed the door and got in the shower after a few minutes i jus sat ib the tub and let the hot drops sting my body

i sat there knees to my chest

crying about everything that ive ever had to go through with him.

after a while i finally turned the water off and got dressed.

when i was done i looked in the mirror and said this is me starting over and new beginnings.

i walked out the bathroom to laurens room to still find her in bed but this time snuggling the pillow i laid on

she looks so calm and beautiful i just cant believe i left her for so long

i guess she felt me staring at her and woke up

she yawned and looked back at me with a smile

" how do ya feel" i asked

"im better now that your here " she said.