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Kai: ay me and Ale are gonna go home
Mya: oh ok. Bye
Ale: byeee
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Y/m: wtf is wrong with you?!
Mya: what
Y/m: drugs!
Mya: what about 'em
Y/m: you could have overdosed again, mija!
Mya: should I be saying sorry?
Y/m: look. All I'm saying is to not do it again. You were this close to being 2 years clean. What happened?
Mya: I don't know, mom! I-I was just sad that Mattia was like that so I panicked and drugs kills that pain off.
Y/m: I'm taking you to your therapist tomorrow
Mya: what what! Why?!
Y/m: because
Mya: it was one time! You can't do that to me!
Y/m: oh so should I be sorry for not wanting my daughter to die! It was hard enough seeing you on the ground passed out! I waited 2 months for you to wake up from that coma! The second one! How do you think your friends reacted? Huh?
Mya: idk..
Y/m: yeah ok. Go take a shower. You smell like drumsticks.
Mya: what?
Y/m: go!
Mya: ok jeez

I took a shower then started crying but at the same time laughing and watching Pets 2. Don't judge me. I know I was depressed but deep down I knew I can get out of that. My mom doesn't know but she tells me that therapists help with depression. I just hate fucking going. It smells like vanilla wafers in the room. I hate it.
I saw that my mom forgot to put away one of my pills.
Mya: shit. Don't do it. Don't do it. Don't do it. Don't do it.
Mya: damn it.

I took one and popped it into my mouth

Mya: god damn it, Mya..