Jimin Oneshots and Sickfics

Dumplings 2

Original request by @Jiminsmaniac

Part 2 request by jiminsdom

warning: mentions of drinking and social anxiety

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It wasn't quite a 180 degree turn around like the people around him had hoped, but it was good enough for Jimin. After Namjoon begged him to get help, something had clicked in Jimin. He admitted to his doctor that he was dependent on alcohol. There were talks of sending him to rehab, but Jimin refused. He wanted to treat it at home.

Apparently, suddenly stopping alcohol intake was dangerous so Jimin had to cut it down slowly. Slowly, he got it down to zero levels. And even then, it wasn't easy.

For the first few days of going alcohol-free, Jimin was snappy. He got annoyed by everything and anything and he was sure that he pissed off all the members at one point. They were strangely forgiving though. Sleeping during that first week was hard too. Jimin was tempted to drink something then to help himself sleep, but the members had gotten rid of most of the alcohol. And he knew that all his progress would be ruined if he did drink. He did know that.

But slowly but surely, those hard times faded away. Sure, it was still hard to sleep most nights, but he was getting better sleep now. Jimin didn't feel like he was drifting through a haze for the whole day. He really did feel more awake and alert after three straight weeks of no drinking.

He still did get urges sometimes. That usually happened when he was bored and there was nothing to do.

Jimin didn't know whether he was happier deep down or not, but it was a start.

But for the most part, he was improving. The agency tried to drown him in schedules to keep him busy. Jimin was usually too tired to think about anything else.

The scandal had rocked him. It really had. Jimin was more conscious about how he acted outdoors. The comments that netizens had written about him had hit him in corners of his mind that nothing else had. Jimin really was determined to change.

He also had to see a therapist to talk about all the feeling and emotional stuff. Jimin was initially embarrassed to talk about the whole song situation that had been the start of all this. Had he overreacted about the deal?

Frankly, he didn't know what to feel. He explained that to his therapist. He was confused about what he should think, about how he should act around Taehyung, and to a lesser extent, Jin. Thinking about what Taehyung had said that day still bothered him. It stung deep down. Jin's words did too. Jimin wasn't a spoiled brat who didn't care about anybody else's feelings. No, thinking like that hurt his pride.

No, what Taehyung and Jin had done was wrong. Jimin wanted to be mad at them. He wanted them to feel bad for all the pain he had had to go through.

But at the same time... both Taehyung and Jin had apologized multiple times. They were nice again. They were starting to joke around him again. Once in a while, they would crack a joke that hurt Jimin, but he couldn't stay mad at them long for that.

It was complicated.

He wanted to forgive them, but he also didn't want to. Jimin wanted to accept their apologies and move on, but he couldn't help but feel that Taehyung and Jin weren't truly sorry. That they had just apologized because they had to and not because they felt bad.

Did everybody think he was an overdramatic brat deep down? Jimin tried to tell himself no, but it bothered him.

Sure, he wasn't drinking anymore, but the emptiness remained. He didn't have anything to fill the hole anymore.