Im Just The Shy Emo Girl............(SEQUEL)

chapter 4

Chapter 4

Riley's P.O.V.

Without even thinking, I slightly turned my face towards Christian as he slowly pulled away from me. He smiled at me, while I stood there dumbfounded not knowing exactly what to do. Part of me actually wanted him to kiss me. The other part of me was screaming at me, telling me to run back to Nate or anywhere Christina wasn't."Well, goodnight Riley" Christian said and started to walk away before I was able to form words, or even get my brain to work properly. He was almost around the corner when I yelled "Be sure to tell Nate I said goodnight!" then dissapeared in my room Shane was not back yet, which was weird. Who knew he would stay at a party longer than me? I got out of my wet clothes and changed into some dry ones, then checked my cellphone. I had a text from Amy. Amy.I just about threw my phone across the room. She was one of my friends from California who I saw over the summer. She completely changed for the worse and she took Kyle, my ex-best friend, down with her. She got into heavy drugs and alcohol while I was at Brixton, and its only got worse. When I refused to do things like that with her over the summer, she totally iced me out and got everyone else to too, leaving me completely alone. I didnt have a problem withhaving one drink at a party every now and then, but it was disgusting whenshe got so drunk she was falling over herself.What could she possibly be texting me for? I opened the text, and read it. You need to call Kyle. Was all it said. I rolled my eyes and tossed my phone on my bed. I refused to talk to Kyle. He made horrible decisions and I did not want to be a part of that, or his life anymore if thats how hes going to be. Besides, the phone works both ways"Hey Ri!" Shane had come in, I hadnt even heard him"Oh, Hi Shane! Where have you been?" I asked, trying to brighten my tone"With Elise" He told me in a dreamy tone and layed down on his bed"What? Elise?" I asked"The girl you texted me about. You know, the brunette from the cafeteria. Her name is Elise and shes amazing. Shes funny, nice, caring, fun, witty..." Shane told me."And you like her?""I do""Well im happy for you!" I said and sat on the edge of his bed"Thanks! So hows Nate?" Shane asked with a wiggle of his eyebrow I laughed and shrugged. "I dont know. I didnt seem him much tonight" I told Shane and started pulling on a thread on his bed spread"What do you mean? Then who were you with all night?" Shane asked curiously."Umm...well...Christian" I mumbled"Christian?" Shane asked with a raised eyebrow"Yes Shane and it was horrible! We kind of got into a water fight, which led him to walking me back to my room, and then he leaned in and whispered in my ear, and it was just so ugh! He made go weak at the knees Shane! And then I actually for a second kind of sort of wanted him to...kiss me?" I told Shane all in a franticrush, slowing down towards the end"And I know thats ridiculous because I have Nate. Who is so sweet, and caring, and great!" I finished, looking at the floor Shane was silent for a moment, which was driving me crazy. I wanted him to say something, anything Finally, he asked "Do you have feelings for Christian?" Not exactly what I wanted to be asked I opened my mouth, then closed it. "I'm going to bed" I announced and got off Shanes bed and started walking towards my own."NO!" Shane shouted and jumped out of bed and onto me. Once I fell to the ground, he sat ontop of me."Are you ok?" Shane asked calmly"Yes" I responded"Good. Anyway, you cant keep running away from your problems Riley Clearly Christian is a problem for you if you wanted him to kiss you!""Shh! Dont say it out loud!" I told him Shane gave me a look. It was deffinetly an I told you so look. I sighed with defeat. "Ok, fine whatever. I have, maybe, some, small, miniscule, feelings for...Christian. But im just going to ignore them. Until they go away" I admited relieved afterwards. Like the weight of the world is off their shoulders. In this case, I feel like my chest was being crushed and I was being weighed down by large cinder blocks"Was that so hard?" Shane asked in a baby voice. I glared at him and shoved him off"NOW I'm going to bed. Night" I snapped and climbed into bed after shutting off the light.

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The next morning, I woke up with a text from Nate saying he would meet me for breakfast I showered and got dressed thentried to wake upShane"Shane!" I said and shook him"Mmm Elise" He mumbled and smiled in his sleep I covered my mouth, not letting a giggle escape"Shane. Do you want to come get breakfast?" I asked, shaking him some more"Elise? Is she going to be there?" He asked sleepily"No" I told him"Then no thanks" He said and turned around, pulling the blankets up to his chin I grabbed my bag and left to go to the cafeteria to meet Nate When I got to the cafeteria, I almost walked right out. I probably would have too, if Nate hadnt spotted me the second I walked in and waved me over. Avery and Christian were there. Avery right next to Nate, and Christian across from her. I slowly walked over to the table and took the only available seat, which was next to Christian and across from Nate"Morning" Nate said with a wide smile, and slid a coffee towards me. "Just the way you like it" He told me and winked I smiled and took the coffee "Thank you. Sorry I left without saying goodbye ast night. Um I was really tired" I said to Nate"No problem. The party got a little out of hand anyway" Nate said then took a bite of toast while Avery giggled. Why was Avery giggling? And sitting next to Nate? And why was Nate LETTING her? And why was Christian so quiet? I gripped my coffee cup tighter, losing my appetite. My breathing started to pick up as my thoughts wandered and I started to feel sick.My leg started to shake and a lump was forming in my throat which meant tears would fal soon"I need to go" I said quickly and got up and half ran out of the cafeteria. I stopped running when I reached the nearest bathroom, where I locked my self in a stall and let myself fall to pieces I crouched down by the toilet and threw up a little, then leaned against the wall. What was going on? I felt like Nate was slipping through my fingers and falling into Averys outstretched waiting hand. It was like Nate didnt even notice I left his party. And I was going to lose Shane to Elise. When has he ever passed up a meal? Today he did, just to dream about Elise. Wasnt losing my California friends enough? I wiped away the tears on my cheek I didnt mind if Shane got a girlfriend, or if Nate was friends with other girls but being put second to the people I put first, kind of sucked. Im not the jelous type either. Its just that, I felt like Nate was keeping something from me and I did not like it"Riley? Ri?" I heard Nate, calling my name from somewhere down the hall When I heard the bathroom door open, I held my breath and quickly stepped away from the stall door so my feet wouldnt show"Shes not here Natey. Lets go back to the dorm and wait" Avery said after sticking her head into the bathroom I faintly heard Nate agree to Averys proposal After what felt like a safe amount of time, I stepped out of the bathroom stall. I looked in the mirror. I was a mess. My face was red, my eyes were puffy, and my makeup all ran off While I was wiping away the makeup with a wet paper towel, I heard the bathroom door open so I turned away, not wanting anyone to see me look ike this When I threw away the paper towel and turned around to get out of the bathroom, Christian was casually leaning against the door, arms crossed We made eye contact and he smiled slightly "Come here often?" He asked"How did you know...?" I asked, not even bothering to finish my sentence"How did I know you were in here? I saw your feet. Avery probably did too Shes a good liar, in case you havent noticed" Christian told me and took a step closer to me."Well, if you'll excuse me, I need to go" I said and took a step for the door Just as I was about to open it, Christian slammed his hand down on it preventing me from opening it. That kind of scared me, I've never seen Christian use such force before."Where are you going?" He asked me with a raised eyebrow"Back to bed. I dont feel good" I snapped, angrily. Why did I have to explain myself to him?"You dont look so good" Christian said matter of factly"Thanks" I said sarcastically and tried to open the door, which wouldnt budge under Christians hand anxious, paranoid, breaking-down, mess" He said quietly, taking a step closer to me after every word. I tried to stand my ground against Christian, he could be pretty intimidating and I really didnt want him to know he was right. But once his brown eyes ooked into mine, I lost it and started to cry once again"You can tell?" I whispered and wiped my eyes"Yes. Now lets get you out of here" Christian said, and wrapped a protective arm around my shoulders, pulling me out of the bathroom.