𝟎𝟓.𝟎𝟏 𝑨𝑴 [𝑻.𝑺𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹𝑰]

one.

❛𝐈'𝐌 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐒𝐎 𝐁𝐀𝐃 𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓?❜
- before i met you

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a stinging and blinding light awakens him from his cycle in dream land. it wasn't like the dream was anything exciting. if a plain black screen that lasts approximately two seconds until the ray of the one and only, sunlight, awakens his slumber counts as a dream then he was there every night.

he removes his covers from his slender body and sets his feet onto the cold wooden floor. a sigh escapes his lips, signaling his disappointment towards the day already.

reason number one, i woke up today. the universe is not on my side already.

his mental notes begins.

he walks to the bathroom and shuts the door quite roughly. he didn't mean to, yet the energy this morning wasn't enough for him to mentally scold himself for it. it's just a door slam. it wasn't like he was angry at anyone already.

quite harshly, he swipes his hands down his face and taps both his cheeks with a gentle slap to slowly awaken himself a little more. his eyes lands on the reflection in front of him, a man with bright red hair. bright red eyebrows. bright red eyes. insanely pale skin.

jesus, you look like a monster.

he's fully aware of the puffiness under his eyes. the dryness that dominates his mouth, throat, and lips. how heavy his eyelids felt every time he blinked. he leans his back onto the door and lets out another sigh as he slides his body down, landing on the cold tiles.

"i'm not ready. not today please."

the high school graduate rests his elbows on his knees and sets his head in the comfort of his own hands.

"i don't want to go on."

he mentally curses himself as he let new set of tears escape his eyes, dropping to his thighs and floor. his heart was beating fast, his nails digs into his palms and his teeth sinks into his bottom lip. at that very moment, he was merely afraid.

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tendou satori has expressed his feelings when it comes to being different. his assumptions and claims were enough to make tendou satori, the middle blocker of the prestigious school, shiratorizawa, seem like he was the happiest he's ever been.

but the guess monster knew absolutely nothing about himself.

his attachment to wakatoshi has costs him a few precious things that he never thought he had to let go. his trust and reliability on the captain was enough to make everyone think;

that tendou satori was alone.

you see, towards the end of their high school days, after shiratorizawa's loss to the yet again top team, karasuno, wakatoshi's heart had seemed to be tinted. a little bit of regret and mere hatred towards the loss, wakatoshi started to develop new sensitivities. it was easy for the redhead to take notice of the new behavior coming from the captain.

but boy was it difficult to overcome.

tendou has tried numerous things to get his best friend's mind off of the thoughts clouding waakatoshi's head.

"how about another round toshi? i'm super positive i can block your spikes now! you know toshi, you're getting awfully predictable, haha! what can i say, i am the guess monster after al-"

"shut up tendou."

tendou's shot up fast. his eyes met with blank canvases that he used to admire oh so much. it all happened so quick, he swore he wanted to throw up then and there.

'almost instantly toshi,

my head started to hurt a little more than it already did.'

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