natasha romanoff imagines

goodbye

A/N :This is a little angst TW: mentions of pills.

All you wanted to do right now was be with nat.you had thought of cutting to bleed out, but you couldn't do that; it would take longer.so you decided the fastest way would be to take pills. But you had to wait till no one was around or maybe when everyone was asleep. You knew that most of them would be asleep by 1am but tony would be asleep at around 5am so you just decided to fall asleep when everyone else's normal time was and just set an alarm for 5:30am.when you woke up you would join nat, that was the plan at least

Your alarm had just gone off, you shuffled out of bed to the bathroom, you had grabbed the strongest pills .Acetaminophen. You had to look for something with a large amount of that in. you had found strong painkillers that you had when you were shot four times in the abdomen. You hesitated before downing the whole bottle of pills and the rest of your water.you started to feel dizzy but you didn't collapse or even faint. You just stood there unable to see or even walk. Legs not moving. No function. You were like an animatronic being controlled by someone and that someone was natasha.you don't know how but you knew nat didn't want you to die, she wanted you to help the others through the rough times.

You guessed you were not dying as you just were not feeling anything.

Next thing you knew you were in bed, somehow. You were mad. You wanted to be with nat.but when you moved you could hear the sound of a small child. A child's voice you recognised but it couldn't be theirs because they were killed by loki. But then you heard the sound of your wife's voice, the voice you thought you would never hear again.so angelic and elegant. When you walked further into what looked like the living room, you saw Natasha and your little boy alexei laughing at the tv. It was playing some comedy tv show. You couldn't believe your eyes, the two most important people in front of you laughing. There were no words.

When you saw your family you knew you were in heaven.the heaven you had wished for science you were a little girl.your wife and son ran and embraced you titly, you couldn't help but spill warm tears down your face.all you could say was that you were happy.happy. You never thought you would be so happy ever since nat died, she was the only one giving you life.the only one keeping you sane. She kept you home.she was your home, the only home you actually felt comfortable with. You couldn't think of anyone else you would rather be around.

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Around one week you had been with nat and your son, you could say you were the happiest you could ever be. You knew that team was mourning yours and nats death. You did feel sorry for leaving them on the day after nat did, but you could tell they were happy for you. now you were free of bad emotions you spent the whole time in the world with nat and alexei. All you had to say was.

goodbye.

A/N: This is a little longer that the other ones, there are probably loads of mistake but oh well im rlly tired so i cant be bother to correct them.

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