natasha romanoff imagines

suicide note

TW: suicide, fight

you fell back on my bed hoping people would just leave you alone, hoping they would let you be at peace. You soon knew that you had to do work, so here you were doing paperwork in my worst mindset.

Flashback-

"Romanoff go away"- you whispered harshly

"I just want to talk, i didn't mean what i said"- she said desperately

"Then why did you say it, you said and I quote "no one ven likes you, just leave. We DON'T want you here" you cant even say i lied".

"I didn't mean that"

"Yes you did, you just want me to be hurt yet again. Just leave me alone already".

"I don't Y/N just let me explain, guaranteed i wanted to get at you but you were NOT having any of it. I just wanted to stop what was happening"

"Oh so it was my fault now? I didn't mess up the mission, you did. You came to ME, I stayed where I was supposed to be. YOU are the reason tony got shot, YOU. do you know how hard it is to be perfect, no you don't. Because you are 'black widow' to everyone you are perfect"

"Yes I moved but because I care about you, and you are also a part of the avengers. YOU are important"

"NO I AM NOT, i live in this useless body that no one needs. You use me as a dummy like i am some rag doll, i don't need to be doing this right now."- you start to walk away

"Bye romanoff"- you speak ever so quietly.

End of flashback-

You now sat there with nothing but the argument in your head, you didn't want to leave.

Time skip-

Suicide note:

Hi, so by now i may be dead. Who knows anyway. i just wanted to say i really love all of you. You guys were the only people who exempted me, you were my family, friends and everyone I could ever wish for. You were the only people I could trust, the only people who knew what I was going through. How i was abandoned as a child, bullied, hit, slapped etc-. I love all of you but I am afraid I have to go. I love all of you guys but its my time-

Y/N Y/L/N-