🅁🄴🄼🄾🅁🅂🄴 𝐿𝑜𝑘𝑖 𝐿𝑎𝑓𝑒𝑦𝑠𝑜𝑛 𝑥 𝑅𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟

Chapter 9

Your POV
**late the next night**

I was once again in the electric chair, trying to to remember the names of all of my victims. In truth, I remembered every single person.

I may not have shown it, but the guilt that eats away at me every single waking moment of every day is enough to drive me up the wall.

It didn't take me long to write down all of the names, first and last. I was relieved to not receive any electricity coursing through my body, but that came with a price. A couple of hours earlier, I had asked for both of them to leave, so that I could, 'think properly', but in reality, I could feel tears welling up in my eyes.

Fury didn't leave, but the other agent did. I felt so ashamed as tears ran freely down my face as I wrote more names down. All of the pent up guilt and remorse for all of these people finally came out. I didn't dare look up at the Director, scared of what I might see.

Once I had written down the last name snd gently sat my red pen down, I sniffled.

"I'm a monster." I whispered more to myself than to the Director, and I saw his head snap towards me.

"Thank you, Y/n. That'll be all for today." He got up and walked out, but the other agent didn't come in.

As soon as I heard the lock click, the dam broke. How could I be so cruel? What was running through my head when I brutally extinguished those people's existence? My lips quivered and I grasped the pen in front of me.

⚠️GRAPHIC AND TRIGGERING⚠️

I stared at it for quite some time, before I brought it up to my arm, and pressed down as hard as I could, making deep incisions through my arms. I stopped when the door to my cell opened up.

I looked down, to see several dark red lines of blood covering my arms. It wasn't much, but it was what I deserved after all of the nasty things I've done.

I didn't pay attention to who came in, or the gasp that they let out once they saw the blood everywhere. All I knew was that shortly after they came in and saw the crime scene, they left, and then came back with a first aid kit. I could tell immediately who it was. There was a metal hand and a flesh one that wrapped my arms up in bandages, and then gently slipped my arms into my straight jacket.

**END GRAPHIC SCENE**

I noticed that he was taking me down a different route than the one that led to the small apartment. I sighed once I saw the glass cells before me. He opened up the door to my old cell, and gently leaned me up against the glass. He left as soon as he shut the cell door.

Great. I'm right back where I started. I didn't bother to say or even try anything. I just sat in my cell, and cried.

Tony's POV

Director Fury had just came to me with the good news that Y/n was finally giving in, and that she had done very well today. I was prepared to go see Y/n and congratulate her. Fury told me that she seemed to have a break down earlier while she was writing down the names, and I just wanted to make sure that she was doing okay.

I hurried down the corridor to where her and Loki shared a living space. I scanned my hand, and the door opened. I wasn't met with Y/n, but a nervous looking Loki jumped up from his place where he was slumped on the couch. His face dropped once he saw me, but he rushed over to me none the less.