Idol Fixer (nu'est fanfic)

9: Unforgotten Past

I felt alone. As if my body was plunged into a deep dark ambyss without any air to breath. My children's faces appear in front of me. I try to reach them yelling calling their names tears going down my eyes, but they just turned away. They started to disappear as they grabbed their dad's hand leaving me in the darkness alone and scared.

"JAKE! ADALIA!" I screamed loudly as I sat up with tears streaming down my face. I felt hands land on my shoulders to hold me down as I continued to scream. In panic I thrashed around to be let go while I screamed my children's name in panic. I need them. My babies. They got taken away from me.

"Roxy! Calm down!" I heard Jr's voice as I felt him pull me into a tight hug. My head rested against his chest as his arms wrapped around me protectively. I finally opened my eyes to see that I am in an infirmary room. "It's ok. Shhh! It's ok!" He said comforting as he rubbed his hand on my back soothingly.

"He took my kids." I sobbed out. I felt Jr's hands tightened around me as his body shook.

"Who took them?" His voice cracked as he breathed out softly. He is trying to keep his cool for me.

"Their father." I spoke softly as I pulled away looking at Jr straight in the eyes. "His name is Matt. Matt Baker." I sighed looking down at the bed I was sitting on in fear. Thinking about my past. My heart ached so much. I felt a warm hand under my chin forcing my head up to look up. Jr looked at me with worry as his hand moved to my cheek stroking it softly.

"Now would be a good time to let it out." He whispered. "You can't be holding it in. For the sake of Jake and Adalia. Tell me. Please Roxy. Please let me be in your life." He begged making me look down again.

Can I really let out my past to him? An international idol? I looked up at him again to see worry plastered all over his handsome features. I lifted my hand to his cheek. Jr lifted his hand up putting it over mine as if keeping my hand there. As if I would disappear. He closed his eyes and sighed then looked at me.

"I'm worried about them to. Please let me. Don't hold it in anymore. Stop holding everything in." At his words I simply nodded sitting up straighter.

"Where do I start?" I asked confused on how I should tell him.

"Who is Matt? What happened to you guys that you broke up."

"I told you. Matt is the twin's father." I breathed out not liking to repeat myself. I sighed again knowing this is a waste of time. I need to get my kids now.

"So what's wrong with the twins seeing their father!"

"THEY CAN'T SEE HIM! HE IS A BAD PERSON! THEY CAN'T BE NEAR HIM! THAT'S WHY I NEED TO GET THEM NOW!" I screamed as I went to get up, but Jr only held me down.

"CALM DOWN! YOU'RE NOT THINKING IT THROUGH, ROXY! WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO RUN AROUND OUTSIDE UNTIL YOU FAINT AGAIN. YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE HE IS AT!"

"BUT I CAN AT LEAST TRY! HE WILL FIND ME! HE HAS GUARDS EVERYWHERE LOOKING FOR ME. I KNOW HE DOES BECAUSE I ALMOST DIED ESCAPING FROM HIM!" I yelled as my mind went back to my past. Tears going down my face. Jr just stayed quiet and looked at me in shock. "Matt is the son of a big mafia that was in Texas. When his dad died he took over. When I met him....he wasn't like that..I loved him." Jr looked at me as if saying to go on. I already started might as well finish. I sighed as I ran my hand through my black curly hair. "We met when I was 17 years old. It was the start of my senior year in a new high school at a new state. Matt would always try to hit on me, but I always turned him down. You know my personality is super strong. ha." I chuckled sadly as I looked down. "It eas the middle of my senior year when Matt and I slept together. We were fighting because we got partnered up for school. He went over my house to finish it up. While we were fighting he just grabbed me and kissed me. One thing led to another and that happened."