Case Closed[Harry Styles][AU]

Chapter 19:"Thinking Of You by Katy Perry" & "Clean by Taylor Swift"

Brooklyn's POV

I was lost for quite awhile. My heart was completely shattered. I didn't know how to move on from this low point.

I had lost Harry but that also lead me to Blake.

I had to realize that maybe it has nothing to do with me. Maybe it had everything to do with him. Maybe I had too much love, maybe I cared too much. Maybe his heart didn't have enough space for me. Maybe a saw a new life in him and he saw a brief passing moment in me. But through all the maybes I've realized that there is no pain worse than loving someone more than they love you. It's like you're falling in free-fall. Expecting that they'll catch you and they're still holding onto your parachute. And my god when you hit the ground, it really does breaks every bone in your body. Gravity is stronger than I ever could be.

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I kept Blake around because we got on well, but also so I wouldn't be alone.

He didn't understand literature the way Harry did. He didn't understand my fandom references like Harry did. Blake didn't know my favourite things. He didn't like the same foods as Harry.

He appeared to be a stuffy businessman but he had some character and charm. He makes me laugh.

Blake always smelled like flowers or cinnamon. Harry used to smell like paint and vanilla. And sometime he'd taste like wine or champagne.

But I forced myself to be with Blake. He'd make me laugh and I'd forget how my heart longed to be somewhere else.

But then I'd feel guilty. I was using Blake to fill a void. The same way someone used alcohol or drugs or fighting. I was using a human being who had actual feelings for me. Strong feelings for me.

"I love you so much, Brooklyn. I'm so lucky to of found you." Blake said.

Harry would of said "I love you so very much." It was a bad habit we both had to say very without cease.

"I love you too, Blake." I said monotone.

"But you're always going to love him more aren't you?" He asked as I stared emotionlessly out the window.

I nodded blinking tears that streamed down my face.

"Do you think you have enough room to love me too?"

I shook my head. "Not the way you deserve. You deserve someone who is all about you. Not me. I can never devote myself enough to you. "

"But I don't want anybody else."

I cried pulling my knees to my chest. "I'm so sorry."

"Yeah I'm sorry too." He said his voice breaking.

That's what I hate about love. Once you have your heart set on somebody you can't forget about them. Even if they are never going to love you the way you love them.

"Does this mean you want me to leave?" He asked.

"I want to be with you Blake. But I need some time... Not away from you of course... Unless that's what you want. I mean I'd also understand if you don't even want me anymore. I don't want to waste time on him anymore. I love you, Blake. But I understand if that's not how you-"

Blake interrupted me by kissing my lips gently.

"I just love when you do that." I blushed biting my lip.

"I love doing that." He said inches away from my lips. "I'll wait for you forever."

"Thank you, so much. I'm so lucky to love you."

"Too bad I'm the luckiest!"

"You're so cheeky." I laughed walking to the bedroom.

I love Blake. I miss Harry. No one says you can't live with the two. My regard for Harry doesn't mean I have to love Blake any less.

Everything gets better with time. The more I indulge in Blake the easier forgetting Harry will be.

I want Blake. When I think of how much I crave Blake it lessens the affliction I have for Harry.

Blake was sitting on the edge of the bed rubbing his eyes. I straddled onto his lap and pulled him by his tie to my lips.

"Touch me until I forget what it feels like to miss him." I whispered into Blake's ear.

"Gladly." He says lifting me from my thighs onto the bed.

His hand roaming my body and mine tangled in his hair.

Throwing our clothes to the floor.

Soft fingertips and Blake's flawless skin.

Harry's calloused hands and inked skin. His green eyes and messy brown hair-

No, Blake's blue eyes and fringed blonde hair.

Blake is here. Harry isn't.

A moan escapes my lips and Blake is the one finally making me feel again.

***

I collapse in his arms as his breathes heavily.

"I love you so,so much." He whispers,his voice raspy. He tucks a strand of hair behind my ear.

"I love you too, Blake." I smile. He slowly kisses me and then pulls me into his chest. I fall asleep to the sound of his heartbeat.

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*A/N: I kind of really love Blake's character (he's pictured above as Trevor Donovan) tbh. That is all.

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