Case Closed[Harry Styles][AU]

Chapter 47: "Wherever You Are by Kesha"

Brookie's POV

The nurse helped me stand up as the doctor shook his head.

"The bullet brushed his right aorta and he was internally bleeding and we didn't catch it the first time. His chest was filling up with blood until he finally suffocated on it... I'm so sorry." He explained as I shook my head no refusing to believe it.

There it was. The final string of my heart that was holding on so tightly let go. I thought my chest had hurt the first time, boy was I wrong.

The sobs wrecked my throat and burned deeply in my lungs. I struggled for air that never satisfied me. That was what dying felt like if there ever was a time. Dying would have been quick, this was suffering without the satisfaction of death.

I was so numb as I remembered the feel of Harry's skin. The way my hands tangled in his hair or held his hand. The way it felt to lay beside him and listen to him breathe and just appreciate his entire existence.

I missed the way he loved me. He loved without cease. He loved me when I couldn't love myself and when I didn't even love him back. I shouldn't be bitter because I was lucky. I was lucky he had chosen me after all this time. I gave him every reason to give up on me, but he never did. That was why I was so lucky to get to love him. I saw the parts of him he buried from everyone else. I just didn't want it to be over. It hurt too much to be over.

I was being escorted back to the waiting room passing different ICU units.

I stopped in front of one asking to go into it.

"Well only family is allowed to visit ICU patients." The nurse said.

"I'm his ex-wife." I said as the nurse reluctantly let me enter.

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