ADDICTED ~ A RoshAn's Story

Part - 28

Aman - Roshni, ek bat mai tumse kehna chahta hun. Jabse aya hun tabse.
Roshni - bolo?
Aman - mai jab yaha aya tb tumpe bohot gussa tha lekin fir pta nhi mera gussa kaha gayab hogya. Mujhe lgta hai hume sb kuch bhool jana chahiye hamare bich me jo kuch bhi hua hai
Can we be friends?

Roshni first smiled and then held Aman's hand and then they started walking slowly in the lonely road as it was midnight and the streets has very few people as the colony seemed to get fast asleep.

Roshni - mujhe bhi yaha lagta hai you know. Galti hum dono se hui. Aman you know what mujhe lagta hai mai kabhi kisiko pyar nahi kar payungi huh tum mere bare me kuch nahi jante
Aman - ye to sahi kaha kuch nahi janta hu isiliye ajtk tumhe wrong judge kia. Lekin ab jab hum friends hai to share to kar hi sakti ho na?
Roshni - I was 10 years old when my parents decided to send me Australia for my studies. I loved Junaid uncle a lot he did all the things a father does for his child. Somewhere I was unhappy with the decision of leaving my family and I think my mother had a great hand in sending me out. Throughout childhood I always felt like my parents don't love me enough like other parents. My parents used to fight a lot and after fighting they used to talk to me rudely that's why I didn't like to share my time with them. I was always at Junaid uncle's house after after going to Australia I knew what being loved was like. I had my best friend, Jessica with me who was there with me all the time from 4th standard till high school. She felt like a partner, a sister and also someone who can understand me well. But I broke down when she went in depression because of  her deadly disease. She had cancer and it was her last stage. I passed high school and she left, she left me, she left everyone. She died. And my heart also died with her. I went in depression after coming back to India. One entire year, everywhere I went, everything I did, my mind was always lost in her thoughts. At home, no body cared a lot for me. My parents were just doing their job of spending money on me and when I was away all they used to do was fight. I understood well that my heart is dead and the world is hell. After that, every relationship I made, friend or something else all were just for benefits and time pass. I never thought a single time before getting into a relationship. I did not care for a next day because when I was a child I always thought my future with Jessica about how we are going to go to a world tour with our soulmate and how we are going to be together everywhere.When I lost my brother and father at that time also I did not feel very much broken because after Jessica's death I understood that everything in life is temporary. I have very few memories with my mother, father and brother. Neither they understood me nor did I.
At college, I made a lot of boyfriends but I was never serious on them nor do I loved them. It was just a pass time and that's why one day I married you not caring about anything and not thinking about my future I thought that you were also going to be like one of those relationships with no value and also the other reason was that I respected Junaid uncle a lot. He was the only person in my life who actually loved me.
I always thought that our relationship is also temporary since the time I married you. That's why I did not think twice before sending you the divorce papers. Everything I assumed about our relationship before marriage proved to be wrong. I hated you much more with time and after what happened in Dubai I got to a conclusion that I had made the most wrong decision of my life by marrying you. But it was my fault, I took marriage as a joke. I realised  this lately that no matter what happened to me in the past, I should not have never taken marriage as a joke. Aman you knew nothing and it was fine for you to think that I was a slut because I had no reason to say yes for this wierd marriage.

Aman - that was alot but Roshni tumhare sath itna kuch. Roshni I am sorry mujhe tumhe judge nahi karna chahiye tha, I slut shamed you and I am so sorry for that but Roshni tum jese life ko dekhti ho wo nazariya bohot zyada galat hai. Mujhe lagta tha mera life mess hai mera dimag kharab h lekin Roshni ye sb jo tum itne baras se soch rahi ho wo bilkul faltu ki batein hai. You lost you best friend that's fine but uske bad tum aise kese life ko aisehi kismat pe kese chor skti ho. I can understand tum ye sab kyu sochti ho kyuki tumhe apne hisse ka pyar kabhi nahi mila jo tum deserve krti thi apne ammi abu aur bhai se. Roshni plz life itna easy nahi hota. Life se har manne se kuch nahi hoga.
Roshni - thank god Aman tum mere life me aye warna me to aisehi puri life bita jeti flow ke sath chalte chalte. Tumne mujhe realise karwaya ki life flow k sath nhi chl skti life me bohot sare tufan ate hai. Ajtk mujhe love chahe kisine nahi kia ho lekin tumne sache dil se hate kiya wo bhi bohot tha meri ankhe kholne k liye kyuki uski wajah se mai bhi tumhe hate krne lagi. Meri mom ke sath meri koi bonding nahi hai lekin firbhi jitna bar tum unhe insult krte the mai unhe defend karti thi.

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So guys ? KESA LAGA YE PART? Roshni ke sath itna kuch huya hai kise pata tha? Aur Jammy kon hai? Agle part me reveal hoga tab tak apsab guess karo! Aur Roshni ke past ke bare me kya khyal hai?