Ian's POV
I sit on the floor not sure what else to do, after Nikki leaves. That's when I see that I have a few messages, some from Paul, Nikki and the last one catches my eye, it was a message from Nina. My heart starts beating again, and I feel like a teenager getting a message from their crush. I hate that I can still feel this, and I know it's wrong but I just can't control it. Without any hesitation I open it.
Nina's Text to Ian
Hi Ian, I am sorry what I said to you when you called earlier. I hope that there is no harsh feelings, I was just having a bad day. - Sent 2:55 pm
I don't know why, but I wasn't really mad at her for saying what she said. Maybe, vengeance and anger aren't really apparent as I get older or maybe I am maturing.
Hey... np no hard feelings. - Sent 3:15 pm
I just need to talk to her, I miss her so much and I just can't anymore. I can't pretend like I don't care, I can't pretend like I don't miss her. I want to be able to talk to her, without it seeming illegal. Then the other part me thinks, she has a boyfriend and she loves him he makes her happy. I can't be the one to strip her happiness, plus I have had my happiness with Nikki. It's like the angel and the devil inside my brain are fighting each other and I don't know who to listen to.
I am just going to call her, fuck it.
"Hey... Nina" I say trying to sound fine, but my voice shakes. It's like when I first called her, a girl like Nina is very intimidating for a guy. She is fun, bubbly, beautiful and talented.
"Hi Ian, I ... I am sorry for what I said to you that day. It was just that I was having all these thoughts that I didn't really think before I said these things. I hope you know that what I said, I didn't really mean much of it."
I don't care what she is saying; because when I hear her voice it reminds me of the good old days when life wasn't this complicated. I just can't live without Nina anymore, I can't pretend like everything is ok. I need to tell her how I feel, I know we can't be together but she needs to know.
"I love you" I whisper, I want to say it more loudly but I can't bring myself to. I feel guilty for saying this when I am with Nikki and she is with Shaun.
There was a long silence, she didn't say anything for a while.
"What" She says so quietly that I could easily have missed it.
"I... I love you Nina, I know it's wrong for me to feel this and I know we can't be together because things are really complicated right now. But I need to tell you that I never stopped loving you, or caring about you." I say louder then before.
"Ian.... I... why now. Why are you telling me this now? I have finally reached a good place and I have moved on from you. Do you have any idea, how long it took me to move on." She starts quiet and then gets louder.
"I... I am sorry." I whisper and hang up. I want to say" Move on please don't be like me still in love with you after this many years" Tears start forming in my eyes, and the realization hits. I can never be with the woman I am truly in love with.
I started packing my bags to go to Nikki's house, I need to smile and be strong for my daughter. Even if I am not in love with Nikki, I still love her and it hasn't been bad living with her. It's the only way I can cope not being with Nina.
Nina's POV
After he hangs up, I start crying. I am a idiot to even think I can move on and find someone else other than Ian. I have always loved him, and I will always love him. No matter what I feel for Shaun, my feelings for Ian have always been there. But now he is married and has a kid to another woman who isn't me. Even if he got a divorce and I broke up with Shaun, she would always be in his life as the mother of his child.
So I can't be with him, its too complicated. Although we love each other, we can't be with each other. My thoughts get interrupted when I hear the sound of my phone ringing. Could it be Ian again, so without even thinking I answer.
"Heyy Neens." Jules says, she is my bestfriend and in times like these I really needed her.
"Heyy Jules, I- " My voice starts shaking, and I couldn't keep together.
"Nina what's wrong? Are you ok? Do you want me to come over?" She asks concern filling her voice.
"Ian called, and he says that he loves me." I say, just realizing how absurd this situation is.
"Ok I am coming over." She says and I feel reassured like everything is going to be ok.
((A/N: Sorry for updating after a while. I have spring break this week, so I might update more. Stay tuned!! Vote + Comment what you think of the story. Also tell me if this going to fast. Thanks for reading.
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FanfictionNumber 1 in Nina Dobrev (4/25/2021) Nina and Ian have been separated for 7 years now. They have moved on with their life and have found someone new. Even with their feeble attempt of moving on, they find themselves always drawn to each other. Is it...