BEGUN : Offgun Hanahaki Disease

OFF PART TWO

Yes I saw the box full of her pictures and your memories together. Tay and I had a
big argument about it. He wanted me to realize that you’re not ready to let go of
her. He made me realize how foolish I am to the point that I had an attack.

I’m still perplexed why you did not visit me when I was in the hospital?
I’ve always waited for you.
I’ve always wanted to see you.
But that question can remain unanswered

I’m satisfied that I have waited
for you as long as I can.
Well, I have to let go of you now. I’ll be lying if I say that I’ll remember

P.S my love for you did not change, it was the season.

Lovingly, Gun”

“Peng are you ready to go-?” Tay barged in my room while he carried my coat.
I was taken aback and wiped my tears. It felt just like the first time I read your letter.

“ Stop hurting yourself, you’ve read it a thousand times by now..” he went to wipe my face as he helped me wear my coat.

“.. I have a question..” as if answers would help me heal my heart. “Go on..” He said.

“You were there when he wrote this letter. You were also the one who delivered this letter the day after his surgery too.

..What did you feel?”

“..That time I contemplated hard whether to leave his letter unseen or to choose you to relay the truth. I felt a real sense of conscience.. *sigh* it was hard.. Yea..”

he had a hard time describing his words but I could see the pain in his eyes and that’s enough to understand that he still chose our friendship over his love for him.

We were both young and foolish.

“We are in our 50’s now Off, 10 years have passed.. Time does pass quickly
isn’t it?” he can’t help but reminisce as we were passing by Sunshine St.

I nodded and slowed down the motion of the car engine just to let him smile. He finds
happiness on small things like that.

Our faces changed when we passed by Gun’s Flower Shop, of course the building was rundown and closed. Tay wanted to
preserve that place,

so he stopped letting others rent it out.
“If I went to see him in the hospital every time you called for me to come..”
I mumbled.

“Stop that! I heard you!!” He hitted my arm. What was I thinking back then? It was such an overwhelming feeling. I wanted to be the saint and let Tay and him have their

happiness.. because at that time.. I knew it was the right choice. Our feelings for each other could have worked.. Why am I always a step late always?

“We’re here.” He said as he waited for me to park. Yes it is. He took my hand. I was embarrassed because they were cold and sweaty but for him it did not matter.

“Whatever happens.. I’m right beside you.” he assured. We both nodded and entered.