Langa Hasegawa just shifted from Canada to his mother's hometown, an unknown place, where he is welcomed by an unknown boy, and an unknown sport. The boy who seemed to have lost everything and lived without seeing any colours, was filled in by a red...
That's right, that was how we met. Which was why I couldn't afford to lose him now, not when he had been there for me when I was lost, I could not leave him when he looked so shattered because of me.
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'Not when he's sad because of me... He looked so torn, as if he would tear up any second , that was why I didn't chase after him. But I can't leave us be like this, I want to see him, I miss him, I miss his smile, I miss his jokes, I miss his hand which he always lends... I miss all of him. And I hate that he's sad because I broke our promise, I want him to hold me in his arms, to hug me like he always has. To tell me I'm awesome, because what's good about being 'awesome' when it's not for him and his praise. I want to see him now!', I thought as I ran out of my house, I grabbed the scooter and took it to his place. I didn't know what to say, and had nothing prepared, but if anything... I knew I wanted to see him, and have him by my side.
Racing to his place as if that was all that mattered, I made it there. I looked up and saw his window that was kept open, whenever he snuck out, he'd leave his window open, and today was no different, he didn't look like he was in his room, so there were two possibilities out of which I desperately wished for one.
'The arena!', I raced my scooter to the arena as fast as I could, I had a chance to make amends and I had to grab it.
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"Your beef will start in two minutes.", Miya screamed bringing me back.
"But, reiki, I need to find reiki.", I said looking for him.
"He's... he's not... that slime probably won't come back.", Miya added with a depressed voice.
"No, he-", before I could complete my sentence I was called out for.
'I wished for him, he had to be here. He wasn't at home either so...'
Should I have waited for him, maybe he just went to throw out the trash and left the window open as a habit. But, just maybe, he could have wished to see me too, and just maybe he could have... come here.
'Reiki, where are you? I... I want you. I want to see you. I... don't know what to do... tell me, please, what can I do when you leave me all alone? When you aren't here? Maybe I should have held your hand back then... then maybe, just maybe, you would have looked back, just maybe you would have not left me all alone in the rain. I should be hearing your cheers, but I can't hear a thing, I should have been hearing my name, but I can't hear it. I- what am I doing here? It isn't- it doesn't feel like anything, it feels like I'm all alone so what am I doing here on my own?', I thought as I put my hand on my chest.
The continuous fast pace that had become a rhythm had been ringing in my heart since the first day. I came here because of that ringing, because the person who rang those bells brought me here, because the rhythm he played was so fascinating it made me feel ecstatic and happy, that's why I couldn't tell what I was doing? That's why I wanted to run out of this place, to Reiki... but he doesn't want to anymore... Reiki doesn't want-
"Langa!", a familiar voice rang my ears.
The huge crowd that was cheering didn't waver, but for a second, just for a second, I heard the boy's voice, the voice I was so desperately waiting for. It was him. It was Reiki.
I looked up as soon as I could, and just as I did, I met his eyes, that looked at me the way it always did, as if it were cheering for me.
'Reiki... That was Reiki! Was he? He was cheering for me... He was... he was watching me, this whole time. I- I- I want to see him!', I had to get over with the beef, I wanted to go back to him, he screamed for me, he too must've wanted to see me. Wait for me, Reiki.
(https://youtu.be/oXwoZa5-sEQ juss in case u wanna see the anime ver.)
My heart started beating again, this time like never before, maybe it was because I now knew why it would run a race, or maybe it was because I hadn't seen Reiki in a while and was just confused and excited, or maybe it was because I finally knew what I was doing here. Anyway my heart was racing, and I knew for sure that I'd found my way, and that I wanted to run to Reiki's side, but to a Reiki that would tell me I'm awesome as soon as I finish a beef. A Reiki that would smile at me and would be proud of me.
'I want him to see me being awesome, and be supportive and happy of it as if I were his. Not to him being upset because of me, since I don't think I can see him looking sad or with that expression again, I cannot ever let that happen again, so I have to win, because I want him to hug me again, because I miss it, his embrace and his hugs and his touches and his hair that sometimes tickles his eyes and causes him blink thrice and making a weird expression and his eyes that look at me with the most loving curve and his lips that greet me with a smile and his hands that always reaches out to me. Because of all those many reasons, no matter what, I have to win this! Because this was my game and the boy I cherish the most is here to watch me play it.', I thought as I did the most absurd thing possible, though I couldn't help it, I had no other choice but to use the steel frames to win.
And just like that I won.
'Reiki... he's not here.', I was used to having reiki by the finish line. 'I- he must be waiting for me in that place.', I took my skateboard and raced to the arena where I last saw him, I had to go as fast as I could... I had to see him. I had to tell him that he... he's the reason for everything, and that without him even the beef with ADAM won't be fun. I need to tell him that. He should be waiting for me.
"Reiki...", he wasn't there...
He was not there.
'He left. He left me. No. that must not be it. He has to be around here, if he left that means... that just means, he doesn't want to be with me anymore... so he can't leave, because Reiki wouldn't leave me... right?', I thought to myself hoping to god he would be there, but to my demise he wasn't. He had left me. And now there was no going back. Now I would just be alone.
'I hurt him, so he left me. I didn't even... get to apologize, or even say goodbye, just like dad, he- he's left me alone too, without any warning, just like dad he's left me to be on my own.', I crouched recalling what Miya had said.
I didn't know what to do, neither could I remember how I got home after that, I couldn't sleep. I couldn't do a thing without thinking of him. The smallest things which would never bother me before would now play in my head, I could tell how he'd react to me being late today and how he'd make fun of my lame jokes, I could tell how he'd smile while listening to me but he wasn't there with me. So I couldn't do any of them and couldn't see him doing any of them.
I miss the person who made me smile like an idiot. It's all because of me... I shouldn't have broken our promise...
