My Happiness - Renga

Hopefully

[A/N Ohk so I know I took a long time to update but I've been busy with H.W. and tuitions and taking care of my siblings, home chores, and because of our holy month I even have to read the holy book, and do other things, and I'm always busy. Regardless I apologise for the late updates, and I hope you like this chapter. Luckily I'm free today and tomorrow, so I'm going to upload one chapter tomorrow as well. Hope you look forward to it!!! 

CUZ THE NEXT CHAPTERS GONNA HAVE RECONCILATION!!! WOOOOOOO]

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I couldn't sleep through the long night. I kept thinking of how Reiki had left me alone, or how I might've mistaken him being there in the first place, or how he might've come and left because he had something to do back home. I kept thinking about how all of this made me feel like we weren't going to meet again. How he might've now completely wanted to break ties with me... because I made a mistake, I broke our promise. I also took into consideration the possibility of how I'm thinking too much into this, and he was just pissed momentarily, and when I'd go back to school he'd just smile at me like he used to before, like things used to be just two days ago, just us and our skateboards, just us in our own world. Just us being together and happy. I missed him but I didn't deserve to. I wanted to hold him but he didn't want to. I wanted to talk to him but we didn't.

I spent the whole night pondering how I'd talk to him in school, and didn't sleep an ounce, because of my anxiousness that was reaching its limits and the sole thought of seeing him which was accompanied with the slight happiness that creeped its way into my thoughts with the chance of him talking to me again.

As soon as the sun rose I jumped out of bed, not bothering to take a shower or even eat, I just knew, I wanted to see him now, I wanted to confirm my thoughts, I was scared but more than I was scared, did I miss him. So I left the house in a hurry, not even making up an excuse for my mom to listen, I left the house in a hurry.

But doing so was pointless, I reached school early and didn't dare to step a foot inside, reason? Because I was terrified. What if he really would ignore me? Will all of this be over then? Would I never get to see him again? Will I even get the chance to speak with him?

Regardless of my traitorous side that begged me to leave, run away, hide or just do anything but enter the building, I'd walked in after an hour of pondering what to do, hoping to god he wouldn't be in class, or maybe he would. I didn't know. I didn't want to know, even though some part of me did, the daring one, the one that I hoped would take control if I saw him.

I entered class and as usual my friends came over and started rambling, not that I knew what it was about but I knew it wasn't important for sure, so I didn't pay attention, not like I could when there was just one thing that hovered my thoughts for a while now, which was probably why I wanted to listen to what they were saying, have myself a little distracted, even if it's for a while.

They mentioned today's game which I said I'd be willing to play with them, and of some seniors who had asked about me, and of too many things that wouldn't, no, couldn't take my mind off the red-headed boy, the boy who was right in front of me, he was looking out the window, which was unlike him because he'd usually be surfing his phone. He looked just as pretty as any other day except for his smile that wasn't being worn, the smile that was always welcoming something, someone, myself included.

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Now that Reiki was in front of his eyes, he couldn't think of anything, all that he wanted to say evaporated like it was never there, he just felt happy, happy he finally got to see Reiki. Now he didn't care even if he forgot all he had to say, because after seeing Reiki he felt all that he had to, and knew exactly what to say. A simple Hi. A simple Hi was probably all that he wanted to say, it'd felt like centuries since they last greeted each other, and their last conversation felt like it would be their forever last, which, at least for now, he didn't want to recall.