I turned this oneshot into I whole book it's called sleeves you should check it out
(Ranboos POV)
Sometimes the stress of being one of the biggest Minecraft YouTube's really gets to you.
I always knew I wasn't cut out for the spotlight and the only reason I even started this was because I was bored and never expected to grow.
Between social media and the lock down my mental health was definitely at its lowest and yet no one new.
This whole thing has definitely affected more than it should have between friendships to my mental and physical health. It wasn't going great.
But of course I was holding other people's mental health up to,
Being a bigger streamer you know that people do in fact start to rely on you so then there's the stress of having to keep this up and, if you take a break or quit your letting millions of people and members of the smp down.
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It was late at night and I was on a call with tubbo.
"So ranboo, cats of dogs?"
"Probably dogs"
Tubbo asked the most random questions and that was honestly something I liked about him.
(Platonic)
Tubbo looked a little disgusted and I honestly found it funny.
"Dogs smell weird tho!"
"So do you tubbo" (I'm hilarious)
I could tell right there tubbo lost it, he was laughing quite hard which made me start laughing.
It went on like this for a while until my on camera started to move a little.
Of course I reached up to fix it and that's when it happened.
My fucking sleeve came down a little.
I quickly looked up at my screen and saw tubbos eyes widen as slight tears glossed them over.
Just the look on Tubbos' face sent me over the edge.
I didn't want to start crying on call with tubbo,as he had just seen enough, so I quickly hung up.
At this point my breathing was heavy and I was crying, nothing too bad yet.
I was freaking the hell out.
How could something be going so amazing then boom some shit happens and it's ruined.
Tubbo always made me so happy he was everything you could possibly want in a friend.
The thought of Tubbos face when he saw my arms was enough to send me straight to panic.
(Tubbos POV)
It was just a normal night for me.
I was talking to ranboo and I was asking dumb questions.
I never expected ranboo to hurt himself.
He always seemed so happy,
He hung up before I could even say anything and that really scared me.
I was spamming his discord, Snapchat, and even iMessage trying to get him to respond.
God knows what ranboo was doing right now.
The panic in his eyes and seeing a few tears fall before he ended the call made me want to talk to him but I just didn't really know how to.
He wasn't responding to anything so I just decided to send him one last message before giving him some space.
"Ranboo if you ever need anyone to talk to I'm here. Don't feel like you have to hide anything.
Love you big man"
(Platonic)
I was nervous as hell but also knew it was best to give him a little space and let him come to me when he's ready.
(Ranboos POV)
I was too panicked to even realize tubbo spamming me in everything.
If I did know I would have responded but I was freaking the fuck out.
