Sometimes I look at myself and thing so much.
There's so much I wish I could do to myself.
I wanna starve.
I wanna be in pain because that's all I deserve.
If my family wasn't around to stop me from doing this stuff I would.
Everything just hurts so much sometimes and I don't have control over how I feel anymore.
I wanna move back to Oxford were all my friends and family are.
I'm done with this life sometimes.
I just start to feel numb.
The tears don't come as often but I don't feel any better I just feel worse.
Is there actually I way to stop this or do I just have to hide it from everybody.
Why doesn't it stop?
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Straight up just a vent chapter I wrote late at night because,
Sadddd
Anyway it's not in any particular POV so you can image it in anyone's idgaf
I'm working on a tommy oneshot rn based on a gir song so yeah
(This was written before "rue" came out)
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I want to talk about the next foster really fast.
So it's one a found in my google docs and I feel like threw out it I was hinting towards trans ranboo.
Of course there's nothing wrong with it but I did try to cut those parts out souly because I don't know if he's comfortable with that.
