haikyuu one-shot collection

𝚍𝚘𝚞𝚋𝚝𝚜, 𝙸𝚠𝚊𝙾𝚒 🌵🖤

Over the past weeks, I've been thinking about romance more closely and realized that I didn't want it. I never crushed on someone and I didn't understand romantic feelings. Platonic and Sexual ones were obvious to me but romantic ones, not really. I realized that I was aromantic.

That was a big problem because I was currently dating my best friend who was in love with me. I always thought that I would return his feelings eventually but I couldn't. I wish I could because I really did love him. Just not like that.

But how was I going to tell him? I couldn't just upfront tell him. He still had hope that I would fall in love with him eventually. I used to have that too. And what if I was wrong? What if I was just too afraid of accepting my feelings? What if I was just too scared to be in a relationship? What if I was demiromantic and Iwa and I didn't have an emotional bond yet?

But then again, we are childhood friends and we are already dating. I knew that he loved me and I knew that he would always do. That meant that none of those what if's could be true. The only other thing I could think of was that this was just a phase which I highly doubted.

I've been thinking of a way to tell him for a few days now but he, of course, noticed that something was up. "What bothers you?" he asked. I didn't know what to say so I just told him that it was nothing but he didn't buy it. "You can tell me everything," he said. I really wanted to tell him because I hated lying to him but I knew that the truth would break him. He kept up this strong facade but we both knew that he was suffering inside. "It's going to be alright, I can deal with the truth," he remarked and that was when I decided to tell him. He deserved to know the truth.

"I know that this might sound not so good, scratch that, you are going to hide what I'm about to say but I think I might be aromantic. Wait no, scratch that as well, I am aromantic," I stated. It felt good to finally get it off my chest but when I looked at Iwa, I couldn't help but frown as well.

"I'm sorry, okay? I didn't choose this. If I could, I would change it. Everything to make you happy because I love you. You are the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with, Iwa. So please, don't leave me," I said. "Toru, I know that you didn't choose this but I was scared that you were going to leave me. I don't want to lose you," Iwa responded. "I would never leave you. It's just that I will never feel the same way about you as you feel about me and I hate it," I replied. "That's alright. I know that you still love me. It hurts but as long as you stay with me, I'll be alright" he said. "Okay. But do you still want to continue to date even though I don't like you romantically? I still like the idea of dating and stuff like that. I just don't feel romantic attraction," I asked. "If you don't mind, I would like to," he replied.

That was where we ended the conversation. Everything went well and our relationship stayed as it was before. Sure, Iwa was a little sad about it but we were comfortable the way we were just now. Everything would change with time but I knew that we would always stay with each other.