12.04.21 - 11:29pm
Love.
Such a huge thing in mainstream media.
Yet I can't find myself to understand it.
Sometimes I wish to be whisked away into a fantasy world, where I could meet the love of my life.
But I don't ever see myself in that position..
It could sound nice for a day.. and then sound very unappealing and crude the next.
I don't want to find love.
Not now, not tomorrow, not ever.
I could talk about it. Yet the more I think about it the more I start to resent it.
I don't get butterflies.
I don't feel the flustering feeling of seeing the one you love.
I don't have any interest to falling in love.
In fact, my dream life is to live in a fantasy world with a mentor who could teach me things I would have never had learnt before- as the two of us travel the world slaying monsters, going on adventures..
But that's just a fantasy.
In this world people expect you to live out your life and devote it to marriage and children, expanding the family bloodline.
And that is everything I never wish to happen to me.
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