Suffer in Silence (Lashton 5SOS Fanfic) BoyxBoy

Chapter Nine

Luke's POV:

It was the longest ride of my life going home, being screamed at. There's this single moment, where I didn't hear anything, and a part of me was happy, however the other part of me felt so alone and empty inside, like I was slowly dying. Is that what my life had been coming to, was me slowly dying at the hands of Jack. Could I really be destroyed by Jack? shuddering, I thought about that night, the drinking, him in my room, I pushed away the tears, I didn't want to be thinking about that right now. I couldn't be thinking about that. I was selfish to worry about that, I deserved everything he did.

Jack did not let up on me for a second, and what made it worse was the toxic smell filling my nostrils. I should have known he was drinking. I wish I was anywhere else, a part of me wanted Ashton right now, he just seemed to make things better, something that I just can't explain. I couldn't even begin to imagine what Jack was thinking right now. I've never asked for him to pick me up, but I had to leave, I mean what other choice did I have? Calling Jack is what terrified me the most, but not more then the feelings I was feeling for Ashton, when he held my hand, I just as cliché as it sounds, I felt sparks, my hand was so heated, I was so stunned, I just couldn't pull away, I somehow felt safe with Ashton?

But I'm straight? At least I thought I was? Everything was just so confusing.

I finally pulled from my thoughts to realize the car was parked in our driveway, with a curious state from Jack, I instantly got out. The cool night air hit quickly, like the rush of a wave. Turning to face the house I gulped too afraid to enter the house, I was terrified of the pain that would soon be inflicted upon me, due to Jack and his anger.

Landing on my bed I fell backward, letting my body shut down and all the crash of thoughts to hit hard in a wave. Grabbing my phone I stared at the eight contacts staring me back. My thumb hovered over the lite up screen for a moment before I finally hit the three letter name. 'Cal'

I decided to text Cal, to get my mind off of everything. My breath hitched, as I got a instant reply.

Cal: Honestly, wasn't too sure about the situation? :(

Luke: I know, and I'm worried about Ashton, and for hell's sake, I'm even worried about Chad, why would someone threaten their child like that?

I didn't feel he got everything he needed to say, so as he saw the 'read' appear, he immediately started typing again. I responded anyways. I had to respond. Shifting awkwardly in my bed, I heard the wood frame squeak, while I sat up, back against the head board, feeling I had more control, when I was sat straight up and forward.

Luke: I just-I uh I think there's more to that story, don't you?

There was a long pause before any typing started, and Cal kept erasing I'm sure what he was about to say. Scared or just couldn't find the words, I honestly didn't know, sure do wish I did.

Crossing my legs, one ankle sitting over the other, I could feel my face get hot when I saw Ashton's name light up. I wanted to read the message but I also wanted nothing to do with him until I understood my feelings? I chose not to read Ashton's message, letting the pain take over me, for not reading the message. And quickly Cal responded, breathing heavy I clicked the message.

Cal: Well whatever, I'll see you tomorrow at school.

He could just change the subject, why would he do that? 'Well whatever' He just can't say that this wasn't fair. Everything had to bother him too? yea I made a mistake mentioning his dad hit him, I'll admit that, but I didn't think it was fair for him to shut me out, we're best friends, he's not allowed to give up on me, because if he does, then I'm alone, and that really does mean I'm nothing.