[Kaiah's Notes on phone]
Okay. I am kinda adamant from telling this to my friends not that I don't trust them but more on nahihiya ako and I don't wanna let them think that these are big deal to me. Lol, it is!!!!
Well, apparently, Grey and I's room are beside each other's room. I am with the same room with ate Freya and Kleyah since both of them wants to know me more and I am also.
Their flight was later than us—Grey, so I had this time with Grey. I neither felt cringe nor feel unsafe with him—well, sa lahat na labas ko with him, ni minsan hindi ko naman 'yun nafeel talaga.
I admit, there are times that I got swayed with his gestures. Hindi ko alam kung may meaning ba sa kaniya 'yon or sadyang assuming ako. I know I am not marupok, I always say that haha.
I feel safe whenever I saw him and I am with him. I am comfortable with him. I am at peace when I am with him. Maybe yes, for the short span of time I am with him, I can say that I am at ease with his presence. Disclaimer, I know I am not yet in love with him. Maybe this is just the crush thingy. I don't know. I am not that innocent and I am not that dumb in terms of love but I know this is not that yet. He's a fucking good man. 🥺 Putragis. Nagkatotoo pa ata ang kantyaw nya sa akin na crush ko siya 🥺
Sino ba naman kasi ang hindi magkakagusto sa kaniya? Andaming firsts ang nagawa niya sa akin. He's the first man except from Kuya and Dad to give me books. First time ko ring magregalo sa taong hindi ko kapamilya at lalaking kaibigan ng sapatos at first time rin magregalo sa akin ng lalaki na hindi ko kapamilya 🥺. He listens to me! As in, hindi ko nafifeel na napipilitan lang siya. He's so ideal. Sobrang gentleman at higit sa lahat, his mindset is so fucking rare! My friends told me my mindset is fine but everytime he speaks, feeling ko mali ng judgements mga kaibigan ko. Help. Crush lang naman diba? Hehe
Ewan. Para akong tanga na nagtatype dito sa notes ko habang naghihintay siya sa labas para salubungin namin sina tita. Katapos lang kasi namin magdinner and natapunan talaga damit ko ng konti ng wine kaya nagpalit ako huhu. Wish me luck hahaha parang bobo, sino naman magwiwish sa akin ng luck lol.
Stay tight, self.
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Ps: Medyo slow down ako sa pag update po huhu busy na sa CSC kasi BSEd Pres na vulnerabelle niyo tapos student pa hihi 🥺💛 thank you!
