3 Months ( Natasha Romanoff x Reader (gxg) ) (ON HOLD)

PART 4 I Panic

I saw in the corner of my eye that everyone else was leaving the room. 

Me and Nat just stood there looking at each other.

"Okay, talk," Nat said, still not breaking eye contact with me.

It was difficult to read her, she had no emotions on her face but her eyes briefly told me she was hurt.

'Alright, if you don't talk, I'll talk' Nat said, clearly irritated by the fact that I hadn't said anything yet.

'Did you really plan to come and say anything to me? or was that just something you fooled yourself to be able to say at the end of the night: "oh she's probably sleeping, I can't wake her up" and avoid this awkward situation?' she said in one tone.

she always knew exactly how I was, I hated it. Sometimes I thought she knew me better than I knew myself.

'Nat I-don't-uhm...' I replied, not knowing what to say right at this moment.

'I can't believe you!'  she said as she stepped to the seats in the center of the room. 'I've been waiting for you for 3 months. not a message, not a phone call not even a fucking email' she said with a hurt chuckle. 'and now you are here, and you say, nothing?' she ran her hand through her hair in frustration as she sat down on the chair.

I stepped in her direction while simultaneously thinking rapidly about how to best handle this situation.

'I'm sorry I left'  I said while I sat down in front of her.

'do you really not understand that that wasn't the problem?! I don't care if you go away for a while. I don't even care if you go away for a year. you hurt me by leaving and not letting me know! you hurt me by leaving just after I admitted that I- That i liked you Yn.. ' Her expression dropping to a hurtful one by that last sentence.

-Shit-

"I didn't i-I never meant to-" I rambled. I felt like the room was getting smaller and smaller. 'Nat you don't understand, i- i- uhm is it suddenly really warm in here? ' I said trying to keep the collar of my top open with my hand.

'Yn? what are you doing? 'Nat asks a bit worried.

'I-uh-i don't-don't," I said with a stressed voice.

'Okay, calm down, I think you're having a panic attack, just breathe' Nat said, stepping over to me and tried breathing with me.

'N-Nat I-I can't b-breath' I said gasping for air, holding her arm. 

Nat looked at me searching for a solution.

'Okay Yn, we're going to continue our conversation later but I have to do this. I think you'll pass out otherwise.' Nat said as she grabs my face and pushed her lips onto mine.

My eyes opened wide in shock, but after a few seconds I calmed down. She kissed me for a few more seconds and then broke the contact with my lips.

'Sorry. it was the only quick fix I could think of' Nat said, her face still close to mine.

'i-uh yes, it looks like that worked'  I replied a little flustered. 

'good. I thought for a second there you were going to pass out here on me ' Nat chuckled. 

'Yeah, you weren't the only one' I laughed silently with her.

...

'Nat I really am sorry I hurt you, I never meant to' I said trying my best not to start to panic again.