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20.You're an idiot.

Songs:
•Sucker for pain- Lil Wayne
•Oh Ana- Mother Mother

JJ sighed and rubbed her hands on her kneecaps. Jane nodded her head at the silence and looked out at the road.

"Jane, I say this as your oldest friend but you're an idiot."

Jane broke away from the road and at JJ with an annoyed face.

"How big is Ohio?"

"What?"

"Jane how big is Ohio, I know you know the answer."

"Well, its 44,820 square miles-"

"Okay and how many people live in Ohio?"

"11,693,217."

"So, what are the chances that you actually run into them?"

"No JJ you don't get it-"

"Jane-"

"No seriously. When I mean they're here, I mean they're here, like in this town. Ever since I got out of jail I've been obsessing with where they are and what they're doing. I needed to know that they were okay and that I hadn't ruined their lives. I can't get them out of my head. Jeremy's family is here and they know who I am. They know what I did. I can never take that back, you know? I killed someone's kid, their son."

"You do know that wasn't your fault."

"I'm pretty sure that it was."

"He was hurting someone. You did what you thought was right."

Jane didn't say anything, looking away from JJ and out onto the street infront of them. They say in silence for a while, Jane picking at the dried blood on her knuckles.

"We should probably go back." JJ said, nudging Jane with her elbow.

"Yeah I don't know if I can do that." Jane caught JJ eyes guiltily.

"Why not?"

"I think Hotch thought I was going to attack him. I can't exactly go back and be like oh shit, sorry I didn't realise that I was having a mental break down. I think I would rather die."

"Wait, why would Hotch think that?"

"Oh well, I said that I thought about killing all of you at one point and he obviously took it literally. You know, you kill one person and people are suddenly scared of you." Jane said dryly.

JJ hummed and nodded her head, raising her eyebrows at Jane. "Weird."

Jane faced the road and scrunched her face. She picked up her board and pushed herself off the wall. Looking down at JJ she groaned and rubbed her bloodied hand over her face. She spread her arms and looked at JJ pointedly.

"Okay, I get it. I'm an idiot and all that. Just get up so I can go and talk to Hotch."

JJ laughed and took Janes outstretched hand. They both stood up and walked towards the car, JJ jumping in the drivers seat. Jane opened the door and hesitated, looking up at JJ with a pained look. JJ raise her arms off the wheel and raised her eyebrows.

"Aren't you coming?"

Jane nodded and leant back on her heels. 

"Yeah yeah..."

"Jane, stop stalling and get in the car, in case you forgot there is woman running around killing people."

"I can already feel the embarrassment building in my body and I just really don't want to do this."

"If it makes you feel any better, I have major second-hand embarrassment for you."

Jane smiled sarcastically and reluctantly and got into the car, grumbling under her breath and closing the door a little harder than necessary. She leant her head back on the seat and watched the cars go by as JJ pulled out of the space and into the road. Jane shifted in her seat and pulled out her phone, scrolling until she found the name she was looking for and pressed call. She crossed her ankles while she waited for them to pick up.

"Hello?"

"Garcia hey, look I wanted to ask you something."

Jane scowled at JJ when she heard a small chuckle coming from her side of the car. Jane punched her shoulder and turned back to the road.

"Ask away my love."

"So, I may have quit my job today and I wanted to see if there was any possibility that a person can be erased? Like a person of my age, my height and could possibly be called Jane."

"Uh..."

"Disappear and all that, like a bond villain."

"Before I answer that, why did you quit?"

"Well, it's more of a pride thing. I basically confessed to the world that I'm an idiot with the emotional range of a celery- hey!"

Jane struggled with JJ who had pulled into a space in the station car park, and reached over the console to grab Jane's phone. She won the battle and smiled at Jane as she spoke into the phone.

"Hey Garcia, ignore Jane, she just forgot to take her meds."

Jane sank further into her seat, wincing and hiding her face under her hand. She glanced at JJ who turned off the engine, threw Jane's phone into the back seat and sat with her hands in her lap. Jane looked at the station and back at JJ.

"I really don't want to do this."

"Look, just go in, say you're sorry and get the job done."

"JJ, I don't do apologises. What am I supposed to say, un fuck you or whatever?"

JJ sighed and opened the door of the car, not saying a word while she got out. Jane watched her walk into the building, and she followed, mumbling under her breath. JJ was waiting by the door for and offered her an awkward smile. Jane scowled and gestured for her to keep walking, dragging her feet behind her at the slowest pace possible. Once they reached the door to the conference room, JJ turned, putting a hand up in front of Jane and stopping her from going in.

"Okay, some rules before you do this. Keep the swearing down to a minimum, yeah? No making fun of the government, no judgmental eyes, no sarcasm-"

"Wait what? Sarcasm is a basic human right-"

JJ cut her off with a stern look before pushing her through the door.

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sorry it's only a short one, lots of catching up to do :)