Where's Elliot?

Big girls dont cry..

The dinner with Nick, made Olivia realize was he the man she loved or was she just wanting Elliot to hurt as bad as she does. Nick is married and has a daughter so that's not going to happen.
Olivia thought to herself all night and all morning. She got to the precinct, annoyed because of the thought rushing in her head.
"Hey" Nick said walking over to her, Olivia smiled. Her smile faded once a voice interrupted. Elliot was there with a perp.
"Can you question him in the interrogation room." Elliot said with a grin, remember back a few nights ago. Olivia wanted to throw up.
"Uh..sure" she said as she got up, taking the perp from his hold. They both walked in and Olivia sat him down.
"So why did you do it?" Olivia asked standing up. The perp laughed.
"Why is it you detectives always do that. May I ask you something." He says smiling. Olivia looked at him.
"Okay..." She said sitting down.
"Have you ever slept with your partner? Have you ever had feelings for your partner? Have you? Because if you have it drives you absolutely crazy. Having them love someone else or even being married, when you think your the one they are suppose to be with. Yes I killed her...because she...made me believe she loved me...I loved her so much I really did. I never meant to hurt her, but she laughed at me. She said she was just using me to get back at someone. So never...fall in love with your partner. I've worked with her for nine years...nine...." He said, Olivia realized that he was just like her in a way that described Elliot. Elliot was behind the glass, thinking to himself. Olivia felt her stomach drop.
"Just arrest me...I don't want a lawyer" the perp said quietly. Olivia looked up and got up.
"Yes I have..." She said answering his question. He smiled. Olivia took him to the lock up until he got booked. She walked to her desk, trying to not cry as she saw Elliot walked to her.
"Can I talk to you?" Elliot asked softly. Olivia smiled.
"Does it involve going to the interrogation room...." She said harshly. Elliot tapped her arm gently.
"Please." Elliot said quietly, Olivia followed him to the outside of the squad room.
"I love you..and I'm sorry that I hurt you..I should have told you the reason why I left...I should have done everything differently...especially I should have been with you.." Elliot said into Olivia's brown eyes.
"It's too late for that Elliot..I love you I CARE ABOUT YOU. But this what we are doing is so childish. You either love me or you don't." Olivia said coldly. Elliot looked at her.
"I put that murder weapon in her desk for you, I never loved Dani the way I love you. I could never look at Dani the way I look at you. You are my heart beat without you it never beats. When I was married with Kathy I always wished it was you I was married to." Elliot said with passion. Olivia looked away,forcing herself to not cry or shed a tear.
"The perp...was just like us...except the only difference is ...I would never kill you even if you didn't love me back or made me jealous.." Olivia said sadly, Elliot got closer and hugged her, Olivia hugged him back.
"I give up..." Olivia said quietly, depressingly.
"What do you mean.?" Elliot asked holding on to her, Olivia let go and Elliot saw her crying and pulling her gun to her head, Elliot went closer quickly and knocked the gun out of her hand, she fell to her knees.
"I want to die Elliot!!" Olivia screamed, Elliot got on his knees to hold her.
"I don't want you to die...if you die...I die..there's no Elliot Stabler without Olivia Benson" he said in her ear holding her. Olivia hugged him.
"I love you..." Olivia said closing her eyes. Elliot smiled. As they both sat there holding each other, Nick overheard the whole thing, he was confused at what had happen, as if their words were just wave lines on a hospital machine.