more than 《 hyung 》|| jaesung

□ 17

I had been hanging out with suzy a lot nowadays . After that moment , jaemin and i are not in contact anymore . I tried to avoid him as much as i can . I avoid his eye contact , run away from him and i even lock myself in the room . I only go out if jaemin are not at dorm .

"Byee jisung !" Suzy wave at me then so am i . I pack my things and walk back to the dorm . Suddenly , someone grip my arm and push me to the locker . "Ark–" i groan in pain and he pin me on the locker . "H-hyung" i look up and it was jaemin . "Do you have fun ignoring me , park jisung ?" I look away and try to escape from him . "Im tired . I wanna go back" he didnt move even an inch . "Jisung... why did you ignore me bby ? Tell me . Why did you ignore me just because of suzy ? I know you longer than her park jisung" he grip my shoulder and i push his hand off from me . "She just want to apologize but you insult her ." He sigh . "Because i know her well–"

"Enough na jaemin...i know you wanted to protect me . But this is not the way . I can see how sincere she are when she came to me ." Jaemin groan . "Jisung , why would you backup her ?! Im your boyfriend . Im here to protect–" i clench my fist and i cut him off . "I DONT WANT YOU TO PROTECT ME WITH THAT WAY ! YOU SAID SUZY IS A JERK BUT YOURE THE ONE WHO ACTING LIKE JERK . IM TIRED WITH IT . I DONT NEED YOUR PROTECT ANYMORE . NOW LETS BREAK UP !" i yell from the bottom of my heart and jaemin gasp . "A-are you sure you want this break up? Just because of her?" I gritted my teeth . "ITS NOT ABOUT HER , ITS ABOUT YOU!" i panting heavily after shouting with anger . Jaemin just let out a chuckle . " you said you love me . But you end up choosing her more than me . Its dissapoint me a lot . You also choose to breaking up with me just because of her . Maybe she's that special to you....then , i will just let you be happy with her ." He smile before walking away from me . And i just realize what i jusy said to him . "A-aniya... hyung– hyung im sorry" i was about to chase him but he had gone from my sight . Wtf is wrong with you park jisung– why did you shut him off ? Why did you tell him to break up ? Fuck it . At this point , im a mess . I decided to fix my relay with him when we are at the dorm .

I take a look at my wrist clock . It is 1.00 a.m. and there is no sign of jaemin . Suddenly , jeno walk to the kitchen and i look at him . "Jisung ? Sorry , i didnt notice you . What are you waiting for ? Its late now" he drink a cup of water and i smile . "I just wanna wait for jaemin ." He choke on his water and i immediately stand up , patting his back . "W-wae ?" I look at him and he wipe his mouth using a tissue . "Jaemin didnt tell you ? He's resigning from his position as vice president of the theatre club" i widened my eyes . My heart fell for a moment . "W-what ? A-are you kidding me ? W-when ?" My lips tremble and jeno blink his eyes . "This evening . The principle told us this evening . He will pack his things tomorrow . " my eyes are teary and i gasp . "I-its my fault ." I mumble and let out a lil sobs . Jeno patting my back to comfort me . "What happen between both of you?" I hug jeno and cry on his chest .

"I-i want a break up . We had a big fight this afternoon . I-i... i didnt even realize what im saying... im a f-fool..." i cry louder and jeno caresses my hair . "Hey hey , you can still fix it tomorrow okay ? Now calm down and just go to sleep okay ?" Jeno comfort me and i tighten my grip on his sleeves . No... jaemin , im sorry...

Next day

I look around , searching for jaemin . I didnt see him since this morning . I had to fix this . Its clearly my fault . Jaemin just want to protect me . While i was looking for jaemin , suddenly some of girls student grip my arm and dragging me away . "Hey ! Hey ! Let me go!" They drag me to an empty classroom and they lock the door . At the other side , i can see someone very familiar . It was suzy . "W-what is this ?" She smirk and punch me on the tummy making me to fall down on my knee . Im so confused at this point . "So , i heard you had a break up with jaemin . Aigoo– youre so dumb park jisung . When i came to you for apology so you will believe me than im sincere to apologies , jaemin guess it right . Im just acting . I was really mess up that time , but thanks to you . You shut your own gay boyfriend and choose to be friend with me . What a dumb puppy . And yesterday , when you said im not a jerk but he is the jerk , youre right thought . " i widened my eyes and i clench my fist .

"So you heard a-all of it ?" I bite my lips hard and she laugh devilish . "Yeah of course... that is the most best break up i ever seen . Jaemin want to protect you , but you end up choose me . How funny are you ." I clench my fist harder . "Y-you... you're the r-real jerk...bitch" i start to tear up and suzy smack the table . "Fuck you !" He kick me many times follow by her gang . I defend myself with my arm and keep tearing up . Its hurt... its really hurt... how dumb am i...

"Lets go girl . Leave this fcking gay alone ." Suzy spit on me before exiting the classroom . I tremble and my body cover with bruises . I sobs and wipe those blood at my mouth . "Na jaemin..." i stand up and i must find jaemin . Hyung... im sorry... please dont leave me... im really dumb... hyung...

I walk to the dorm weakily and suddenly i saw jaemin in front of the door with his luggage and talking with renjun . I run to him and immediately give him a back hug . "H-hyung....im sorry hyung... i dont want this break up... hyung... i love you... im sorry , please dont leave me..." i sobs and he remain silent . "J-jisung ! Your body , its cover with bruises !" Renjun gasp and i tighten my hug on jaemin . "Hyung i love you... please dont leave me... im a jerk now , hyung..." he remove my hand from him and he give me a cold stare .

"Goodbye park jisung"

《 12.23 》