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Thursday, 7:10pm
Bedroom

I never thought I would be doing this today. Tonight. On my desk in my bedroom. It's like the whole world stopped at that point and the only thing that's alive is me---well I'm not sure about later.

My room is full of old vintage stuff like posters of the beatles and some vinyls. I remembered my grandfather used to give me some pictures of his favorite bands from the 50's to 70's era until little did I know I started to collect more of those stuff which turned my bedroom into some kind of old vintage restaurant.

As of now I'm just wearing my all-time favorite sweater from my mom (the one with the cat design but now looks like a big rat) and pajamas. My hair is also tied up even though it's short but I still figured out a way so that it fits. I like my hair tied up like that because I accidentally cut it off one time at school when working on a project. I'm thinking about things that time so I didn't notice the scissors on my hand. That's why it looks so horrible right now.

After a few minutes I didn't realize I was staring at my hand holding a blade. I thought I would be shocked but at some point I felt like "After this everything will be peaceful anyway". I checked my phone:

7:34

Well maybe it's time... I knew when I leave this earth no one will care, my family and friends of course will be mourning and depressed and stuff for about a month but after that, everyone will just forget about me.

Before I well, do it I opened my laptop to check if there are messages and emails for me from friends, relatives, schools, ads, whatever. I don't know It's kind of automatic for me to check those things before I go to bed. After I checked my mails and facebook account, I opened notes on my laptop and there I saw all the things I wrote for the past few months ever since I felt...different.

January 1, 8:00pm
Yesterday we went to a private resort my aunt and uncle rented and there we stayed overnight and spent new year's eve. Earlier we just went swimming and it was fun. It felt like I'm lying on the grass, which is weird because grass is like itchy and stuff. But anyways, I'm gonna sleep now because sleep is basically the best 'cause it's the time when you finally get a peace of mind and go back to fantasy world for a few hours.

It's true. I like when it's night time when I have to sleep. I find it very difficult to sleep at first but when I'm able to it just feels...peaceful. For me it's like the most exciting part of the day. No more stress, pressure, overthinking. Just sweet dreams and my warm blanket.

Only this time when I sleep I possibly won't be able to wake up anymore. I don't think I'm even sure of doing this tonight because first of all, I'm very sleepy and I find it funny because I'm about to end my life whilst my mind just doesn't care and just want to rest. Second, I'm afraid of blood. How crazy.

So then again just like every day, I wrote about what happened today in my laptop. I wrote what happened at school, what I ate, and that I almost...you know.

After that I felt really sleepy so I shut down my laptop and went to sleep. I checked the alarm on my phone to see if it's set at 9am, just incase I oversleep again. There's no school tomorrow anyways because friday is a holiday. I forgot what the occassion is but it has to do something with a national hero's death anniversary or birthday.