My dear servant/Zarry

chapter 06.

Zayn's pov:

"No, I can't leave Harry. No I can't. I love him"

"But you need to leave him"

"No no I can't"

"But you have to"

"Nooo" I shouted and woke up from my sleep. I was sweating and started to breath heavily. Why all of this memory is coming back to haunt me ?The more I try to forget my old memories, the more they come back.  But I don't want to forget those old memories of Harry with me. Those memories are golden memories for me. Though he is punishing me,my love for him will never decrease. I still love him the way I used to do before. He is my soulmate and my love.

He has the right to angry at me, to punished me because I deserve that. I can't blame him for that. Fault is only mine. I am the one who left him when he needed me most.

I am currently in the bed which was in basement and aleena was beside me, sleeping. I always love to sleep with her, and I don't feel secure to keep her in crib at night. I always want to be with her. She is the best one to accompany me.

Slut was still traced in my forehead, which was making me in verge of crying. Tears started to roll from my eyes. And my waist and abdomen were still burning though I applied some ointment. I looked at my wrist watch. It was 6.00 am . Ohh I need to make breakfast for Harry or else he will be late for his office. I feel insecure to leave aleena in basement alone so I always take her wherever I go. I stood up from the bed and carried her.  She is like my sleeping beauty, she is my sweet little princess. I walked out of the basement by carrying her.

I don't know why I am feeling so much weak and tired. I think working all day makes my whole body ache and I feel tired. I took a deep breath and wiped my tears. I don't know why tears always flow from my eyes. Are these flowing for the hurt which I am getting from Harry or the pain which I gave to him? Are my tears rolling because of his punishment? I sniffled and continue my walk.

I walked to the kitchen then something hit in my mind. I can't cook anything without his permission. I started to chewing by bottom lips as I was getting nervous. I can't go to Harry's room and ask him for the menu. But I need to or else I will get punishment again.

Wait why he didn't wake up yet? Is his office off today? Or he took leave today? I don't know. But right now I am most concerning and tensing  about breakfast. what should I do in breakfast?

"Hey baby, tell me what should I do?" I whispered to aleena. I know she can't barely hear me as she was sleeping. But I get hope, happiness and releif by talking with her.  She is always a light of hope for me.

"Should I go to Harry's room and ask him for the breakfast? Tell me" I pleaded playfully and pouted at her who is sleeping peacefully in my lap.

"Okay I think I should go to him and talk to him" I said, smiled and sighed.I'm going to ask him the menu where I'm afraid to be in front of him. . But before we used to do make breakfast together and I always used to feel safe around him. I used to get my strength by seeing him, by keeping him beside me. And now I don't have dare to look at him. Tears again started to roll from my eyes. Ugh I am hating my eyes now. Why I always get to cry so quickly.

I wiped my tears and started to walk Harry's room slowly, carrying Aleena.
I sighed in releif when I noticed the door of his room was open. I just hope he is wake. I proceeded to his room, but all of my hope vanished when I saw he was sleeping.

His room was really a huge room. He was sleeping in the king-sized bed. I noticed there was a large sofa and there was a small coffee table in front of the sofa where a huge briefcase was there.