My dear servant/Zarry

chapter 28

Zayn's pov:

Sometimes which we want we can't get what but when it comes we just let it go not bothering to take that, it was the situation of me.

I know how good Anne was to me. She had always treated me like her son. That's why she had never allowed me to call her anything except mom. By seeing Anne, I am missing my mom right now. My whole family has been destroyed, my love life has been destroyed, my life has been destroyed but I don't want to destroy my daughter's life. I will give her everything and a better life.

It was hard for me to stop my crying. I sprinkle water on my face and looked at the mirror. Why I am so bad? Why I am so cruel? Why do I always ruin everything? Why I am always everyone's burden? I am not worth anything. I am worthless, who doesn't deserve to live. If I want I could give up my life six years ago. But Aleena, my daughter gave me another reason to live. She is the reason we can be together.

My tears were flowing like a waterfall. I looked at the mirror, and my eyes were swollen red puffy. How much I will cry? My crying is infinite and it will never stop. I am getting my karma. I know Harry doesn't deserve so much pain, Anne doesn't deserve to get hurt, my parents don't deserve to die but they all got that, their lives have become so unjust just because of me. Why I am so bad? I am not destined to live. I want to hurt myself the way I have hurt them. I just hate myself. Once I will manage to give Aleena the right place, I will walk away from everyone. When I am the root of the problem, then let me finished 

I cried for a half hour now I can't cry more, my eyes were swollen and my face was red. I was feeling light, and the dizziness was hovering over me. I sniffled and poured more water on my face continuously, didn't give a chance to breathe, at last, I couldn't breathe, I stopped and began to cough.

I gulped and took a heavy breath. I have to focus on where I am here for. That rose ring means a lot to me. It is the last symbol of our love and I can't lose it at any cost.

I got out of the bathroom and was heading to the place which is the reason for my nightmare. I was walking through the balcony of harry's office.

On my way, someone pushed me from behind, and I couldn't manage, my fragile body collapsed to the ground I was staring incredulously at the mentor who had pushed me, my hands clamoured wildly for non-existent handles, and my last thoughts were of betrayal. I winced my leg is hurting more terrible.

I looked up and saw Kendall. She is the reason for it.

"Oops, sorry, I didn't mean to." She gave a fake pout and at the end started laughing loudly. I didn't say anything to her, I avoid contacting her eyes because I know there will be no use in arguing with her.

"By the way, What are you doing in Harry's office, now in this time? Huh? I can see how much you fall for him. "

I still didn't utter a word to her, my leg was hurting, I was about to grab my crutches, but she stepped on them.

"You didn't answer my question, what are you doing here? " Kendall said by gritting her teeth.

"Why the fuck I will tell you that?" I retorted by glaring up at her.

"Ohh, I think you have got so much gut? Huh?" She said by gritting her teeth and stepping into my plastered bruised leg with her red heels shoe.

I let out a scream due to immense pain, fall laid to the floor and tried to push her away but she was giving me pressure more.

"Go away from here. Please, it hurts a lot " I cried and tried to push her, but she didn't remove her leg.

"So, will you ever raise your voice at me? Huh? Tell me?" Kendall growled, and I shook my head. I can't take this pain.