My dear servant/Zarry

chapter 38

Author's pov:

It makes you impatient to see your lover in hospital, don't exactly know what is happening, except prayer. You can't say it, lover, Harry can't define what it is. But deep inside he longs for zayn. His heart cried every time he realised that he endure every torture of David silently only to protect him.

"Mr Styles, zayn has woken up." Dr Joe said which made a smile grow on harry's face.

"How is he now? Can I meet him?" Harry exclaimed as he wiped his tears.

"Yeah, and you can take him home if you want but you know last time I told you not to make him do any work, or to give any stress, but after doing his checkup, it seems he has been under stress more, please take care of him." Dr Joe said which made harry look down.

"One more thing, I have found new more bruises on his body. "

Harry was guilty of that, his heart was crying for that, but doesn't zayn deserves these for leaving him? for hurting him? Does he need to remember all of this hatred now?

He clenched his eyes closed, what should we choose love or hate? At this time Zayn needs a bit of affection, he is sick. He wanted to forget that hatred only for some moment, but he can't. Why did Zayn leave him? How Zayn has insulted him and his family is impossible to forget. on the other hand, Zayn is married and he has a daughter, does he allow to love a guy who is already married and he has a daughter. Why he is thinking so much? He is going to marry Kendall. He has to forget him, that's it. But he has to be soft towards Zayn, he is sick.

He opened his eyes and sighed, he will take care of zayn, whatever his brain is telling him, he will not obey that, today or for now, he will accept whatever his heart is saying him to do.

"I am sorry, doctor. I will take care of him. Don't worry" harry assures him, the doctor nodded and motioned him to meet with zayn.

Harry walked to the room and peeked from the door to see what the younger boy is doing, He found zayn was sleeping, it was so peaceful to see him sleeping which was mesmerising harry with zayn's beauty. The bandage was wrapped on his forehead, still, his front hair was touching his eyes over the bandages. Some wires were connected with his hands, he could notice the bandage wrapped on his stomach under his t-shirt.

He walked to zayn, he can't believe Zayn is still looked the same, that pretty which he was before.

He sat beside him on the tool, took zayn's small hand and kissed on his knuckles.

"you look pretty even when you sleep. I am sorry.." Harry cried and whispered on Zayn's knuckle, tears fall on zayn's knuckle which made zayn's eyes open. He looked beside him and saw Harry was crying by holding his hand, which made tears form in his eyes. He touched harry's face and wiped his tears. Harry flinched on that and instantly left zayn's hand, stand, and made his back face to Zayn.

"Sir..." Zayn called weakly, wanted harry to be free with him, wanted harry to talk with him.

"Zayn, the doctor said you to take a rest. Don't overthink, and do some rest" Harry blabbered as he wiped his tears and left the room which made zayn heartbroken. His eyes follow harry's movement of going. He didn't want Harry to go. He knows Harry is hurt and he needs to be with him.

Zayn was staring at the door, blaming himself for this condition of harry. Everything became worst because of, Zayn.

Harry broke out in cry right outside the door. He can't face zayn now. Zayn's accent is making him only weaker. Zayn made harry's heart like stone and now he is trying to melt it. He can't be with him, he has to marry Kendall.