"It's always you isn't it eff," Alex sighed, "they always want you."
A story of being unwanted & overshadowed
(Freddie x femaleoc x cook x effy)
Tw: strong language, drug misuse, alcohol abuse, self harm
Liar - sex pistols ________________________________
A few weeks had gone by since our first day of college, we were all settling in pretty well, i was still close with Panda and Effy but I'd taken a liking to Emily. Much more that her twin sister.
"Katie gets on my nerves." I said to Panda.
Pandora and I were currently at my house getting ready for 'cooks 17th birthday rager' and he so eloquently named it.
"Why?" Panda said as I zipped up her dress.
"My initial meeting with her was sprinkled with homophobia." I fake giggled, "you know it's my favourite."
"Wait Alex?" Panda turned to face me and I began fixing her hair. I hummed in response.
"If you're gay how come you want to surf and turf with Freddie?" She looked genuinely lost.
"Multitasking." I said as I turned to face the mirror and began putting on some eyeliner.
"And I do not want to surf and turf Freddie!" I stated.
"I think you do," panda giggled. I began putting on my outfit.
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Panda lay sprawled out on my bed staring up at my ceiling, her limbs and pink dress looking out of place amongst my dark brown and black sheets.
"Do you think anyone will surf and turf with me?" Panda asked, sorrow dripping through her voice.
"Of corse," I pulled her hands up and places a kiss upon her forehead, "you'll find someone to love one day."
She found comfort in my words and smiled. I grabbed some spliff and a lighter along with my phone and we went hand in hand down the stairs.
As we walked passed the living room I waved good bye to my mum who was working on a new project for her company, wine glass in shaking hand as always.
I laced up my black boots while I wanted panda fumble with her trainers. I smiled at her.
I kissed the large picture frame by the door farewell.
"Cya dad." And we went on our way.
We walked through the streets of Bristol and bumped into Katie and Emily on the way, we all walked the rest of the way together to some washed up, tatty, old bar.
Effy walked in a few moments after us her eyes looked disconnected. I was worried about her.
We were greeted by a very enthusiastic cook, sadly he was not met with the same energy by everyone else.
Cook began throwing a beer down his neck but most of it ended up on his shirt. Panda was shocked and grabbed my hand out of fear I'm presuming. I gave it a reassuring squeeze.
We all found ourselves around a table, I sat between Freddie and effy.
"You okay eff?" I whispered while the rest of the group dismally sung 'well hes a jolly good fellow'.
"Yeah, it's nothing." She gave me a weak smile and I squeezed her hand under the table.
I joined back in with the slow chorus of singing as the rest of my friends butchered the song.
Cook got up to go get 'more drinks more drinks more drinks more drinks more drinks' as he chanted.
"He's fun," Katie said
"You have no idea." Freddie leant back in his seat.
"He's already had half a bottle of vodka." JJ smiled.
"Really," Effy said dramatically. "How crazy!"
"Tequila!" Cook grinned, "who's in?"
A few of us mumbled yeses.
We all threw the shots down our throats ,me doing around three and cook doing several.
Freddie's hand had drifted onto my thigh and he squeezed it on my third shot. I knew this was him trying to tell me to 'slow down'. For once I listened to him.
Cook began to wolf howl after he's finished of all the shots, followed my JJ and reluctantly by Fred. I smirked to myself. I looked towards Effy who couldn't seem to take her eyes of cook. Interesting, I thought to myself.
JJ did a magic trick where he produced a goldfish into a glass which made Effy grin. I have a gentle clap for JJ as he passed the glass to cook who proceeded to swallow all of the water along with the fish.
I gagged and threw up a little in my mouth, that was the most disgusting thing I'd ever seen. Panda seemed to have the same idea because she actually threw up. Cook cheered at her misfortune.
Cook went off to get even more booze, and that's when Naomi entered.
"Great it's the lesbian, she's come to gay us all up." Katie moaned.
"Watch out Alex," Effy smiled at me. She's always been supportive.
As Naomi sat down cook leant over to speak to her.
"You want to know a secret," Cook said in a bushed voice.
"What?" Naomi said.
"I know the cure," cook laughed "it's my cock."
Only Katie and cook seemed to find this amusing.
"That's enough to turn any girl gay." I said to myself.
"What was that princess?" Cook looked over at me.
"Did I stutter, I said, your cock is enough to turn any girl gay."
Naomi smiled.
"Not the cure 'princess' quite the opposite." A have him a fake smile.
"She's a feisty one Fredster," he looked me up and down.
I stood up and walked out. My thigh still electric where Freddie's fingertips had laid here moments ago.
I went and sat on the curb outside and lit my spliff. I took a long drag and exhaled the smoke, fuck. I needed this, however I didn't have too much peace. I finished off my spliff and was joined by non other than cook himself.
He sat next to me and didn't say anything for a moment.
"You a moth muncher then?" He spoke calmly.
"Partially." I looked at the floor.
"A bit of both, I like your style." He put an arm around my shoulders.
"Your not so bad after all." I smiled.
"I guess not," he smirked. He went to open his mouth before I interrupted.
"I'm not going to shag you, not even because it's your birthday.
