You're the darkness to my life

"Whats got your panties in a twist?"

"You need to get out of this room" L mumbled plopping down next to me on my bed.

"I dont feel like going anywhere" I replied pulling the blankets over my head.

"Its not healthy for you to stay coped up in here" She tore the blankets away from me and I groaned

He's been gone a week now. 

A whole week with me constantly  wondering where he is and if he's okay. Worrying about whether or not hes alive. Wondering if maybe he got away and is just wandering around this huge forest by himself. 

"I dont know what to do with my life anymore" I cringed and went into fetal position. 

"Oh stop. You have lived this long havent you?" She hit my arm and I frowned moving away slightly. 

"Only by the skin of my teeth" I muttered feeling around for the blanket and pulling it over me again.

I had my at least 20 mini panic attacks while hes been gone. All times someone found me hidden in a corner panting and gasping for air. I got yelled at for not asking for help and was forced to have a baby sitter at all times. 

"They will find him. They said they would" She said in a light voice. Most likely trying to sound gleeful.

"They said that a week ago." I said giving her a pointed look.

She sighed and got up pulling me up with her. She started tugging me in the direction of the door while explaining that her, E.J., BEN, and Sally where going to watch a movie so I should join them. I grumbled and pulled away from her.

"Alright. But let me get my blanket." I went back over to my bed to get my TARDIS blanket and wrapped it around me. "Alright lets go."

I followed her down the stairs  my blanket dragging behind me. She stopped at the bottom and turned around to make sure I was still there. I grinned and gave her a thumbs up. She rolled her eyes playfully and grabbed my arm dragging me over to the couch.

"Alright what movie are we watching?"I asked bringing the attention of the guys and Sally to me.

"You're aliiiive!" BEN exclaimed like Frankenstein.

I felt a small smile form its way onto my face and I shook my head sitting down next to E.J. L sat down in between BEN and E.J. BEN glanced at her and smiled warmly before putting his hand on her thigh. With his free hand he made a remote materialize in his hands and pressed play before making it disappear again.

"Well are any of you going to answer?" I asked again only slightly annoyed. 

"We are watching a scary movie." Sally reponded crawling into E.J.'s lap. L gushed over it for a little and E.J. sat up a little taller. I couldnt tell his expression- with his mask and all- but im pretty sure it showed one of flattery and confidence.

I grinned and looked over at BEN. He tensed at her fawning over E.J. and retracted his hand from her thigh. He frowned slightly and made a crude remark about Sally always being with him and that Sally was almost never with  E.J.

"Awwwwww. Thats means you're getting better with her" She cooed and leaned against him vaguely. BEN shifted uncomfortably and focused his piercing stare at the tv while "It" started playing.

I grimaced when I realized what was playing and instantly tried to shrink back into my blanket as if it could protect me. Sally made E.J. wrap his arms around her and snuggled closer to him while L rested her head on him and smiled a small blush rising in her cheeks. Jeff walked in shortly and glanced at us and groaned while throwing himself down on the love seat closest to me.

"Whats got your panties in a twist?" BEN asked making L laugh. 

"Shut up BEN. Im not in the mood" Jeff replied putting his arm over his eyes.

"When are you ever?" BEN quipped. 

I looked towards the tv and glared at it hating that Alex wasnt here to tell them to shut up and hug me close. Stupid clown always scared me. Alex always chose this movie so that I would constantly beg for him to cuddle with me. 

"I cant do this. You guys just had to go and pick this movie didnt you." I got up and turned to L. "Im sorry. I thought i could do this. I really did."

"Geezus fucking christ get over it. Stop being a little wuss about him. Hes big enough. He'll handle himself well." Jeff snapped at me while standing up.

"How the hell am i supposed to get over it!" I screeched tears briming my eyes. I let out a breath and sniffled. "I didnt mean to yell at you sorry."

"Like hell you did. I'll go find your stupid boyfriend. I'll bring him back. " He muttered something incoherent under his breath and started for the door.

"I'll go with him. He might do something stupid. I'll beat his ass if anything." L said getting up to follow him. 

"You dont have to. I dont want you to get hurt. He could be violent..." I trailed off glancing at the floor.

"Psh. That boy slipped on my clothes and didnt kill me. I think he has a soft spot for me. Plus lets just say you'll owe me for this." She grinned and turned to BEN and E.J. "I have a mission for you both. Stay here and make sure this chick doesnt hurt herself or do anything stupid."

I frowned and she simply looked at me before walking out and following Jeff into the forest.

Oh boy I hope they'll be okay.

Sally got off of E.J. and tugged on my sleeve.

"Do you know how to make cupcakes?"