Taming my Darling CAPÍTULO CUARENTA Y UNO.
Chapter 41: Felt abandoned
J E N N I E
[ "Anak, sigurado ka bang uuwi ka na talaga dito sa pilipinas?." ] Mom asked me from the other line.
"Mom, bakit parang problemado pa kayo sa pag uwi ko?. Ayaw niyo po ba kaming umuwi diyan ng mga bata?." I said while laughing softly.
[ "No, not that honey. I mean napag-isipan mo na ba ng maayos? eh baka kasi mamaya, di ka pa pala handa pero nagparito ka na kaagad." ] She said.
My two eyebrows are furrowed, what does she mean?.
"What do you mean about di pa ko handa?. Para saan naman?." I asked with mixed astonishment.
[ "......" ] Nakailang segundo na pero di parin siya sumasagot sa mga tanong ko kaya minabuti ko nalang na sumagot.
"Hey mom, are you still there?. Are you okay?." I asked her.
[ "A-Ah no, nothing honey. Pakisabi nalang sa mga apo ko, their grandmother is so excited to see them okay?." ] She said.
"Thanks mom for caring us, wag kayo mag-alala dahil makakauwi kami diyan ng ligtas. I need to hang up this, mag iimpake pa po kami ng mga gamit namin. Take care there always and love yah." I said.
[ "Take care honey and we love you too." ] She said before she hang up the phone.
I just smiled on purpose. Uuwi na kami ngayon ng pilipinas dahil sa trabahong kailangan kong asikasuhin. Marami rami nakong ginagawa ulit sa ngayon kaya medyo busy ako ng mga nakaraang araw at minsan nalang makamusta ang aking mga anak.
Lumapit ako sakanila habang naglalaro sila ng kanilang mga laruan. Hindi ko sila sinanay sa paglalaro ng mga gadgets dahil hindi pa maganda para sa mga batang kasing edad nila ang masyadong tumutok o maadik sa ganung mga gawain. Hanggat maaari, hindi ko sila kukunsintihin sa mga bagay na alam kong makakasama para sakanila. I love my children and i can't bear to lose them to me either.
"Caliah and Cayden, ayos na po ba ang mga gamit niyo?." I asked them.
"Yes po momma, and we are ready to see our lola and lolo at the philippines!." Masiglang saad ni Caliah habang nagtatatalon.
"How about you Cayden my baby, aren't you happy to see your grandma and grandpa again?." I asked Cayden who's currently playing with his own toys. Talagang napaka seryoso nitong bata na 'to pagdating sa mga bagay bagay.
I approached him and knelt in front of him.
"What's your problem baby boy?, you can tell it to momma." I asked him but he just kept quiet.
I let out a deep breath before speaking again.
"Cayden tell me, may problema ba ang panganay ko?." I asked him but he's still not talking.
"Kasi po momma, i saw him yesterday crying at his school." Suddenly my daughter Caliah said so i turned around to her.
"You saw your brother Cayden crying while he's in the school? but why?." Mabilis kong nilingon si Cayden na ngayon ay nakayuko na.
I touched his face with both palms and presented it to me.
"Is that true Cayden?."
"N-No momma, maybe Caliah is just lying to you. I'm not c-crying yesterday." He said while he can't control his tears falling from his cheek.
I wiped his tears and kiss him at his forehead.
"You know your sister Cayden, she can't lie to momma. Now tell me, is that true?." Umiiyak na siyang yumakap na ikinagulat ko lalo.
I hugged him back while caressing his back and kissing his head.
"Oh god!. Cayden, are you okay?. May masakit ba sa panganay ko?." I asked her and couldn't help but to worried.
Iniharap ko muli ang kaniyang mukha saakin at kita ko kung gaano na karami ang nailuha niya. Oh shit, anong gagawin ko?!. Hindi ako sanay na nakikita ang mga anak ko na umiiyak ng ganito. Natataranta kong pinunasan ang kaniyang mga luha gamit ang aking mga palad.
"Why are you crying baby?. Cayden stop crying, momma's hurting when i see you crying." Pagpapatahan ko dito habang hindi parin tumitigil sa pag-iyak.
"Anak, stop crying na please. Tell me your problem baby."
"M-Momma, my classmates *sobs* always told me that my daddy doesn't *sobs* love me anymore. Kasi, sila may papa na naghahatid sa school but me, always no one takes me to school except on our nanny." He explain it while crying at my two hands.
"Tell me momma, do we still have a dad?." Umiiyak niyang tanong.
Nagulat naman ako sa naging tanong niya, bakit ba kasi yun pa?. Shit, anong sasabihin ko?. Na hindi kami mahal ng ama nila?, no! hindi, hindi naman ako tanga para sabihin yun ng diretsuhan sa mga anak ko dahil alam ko masasaktan sila ng sobra.
Naawa ako sa mga anak ko pero ano pa nga ba ang magagawa ko? may anak na ang ama nila sa ibang babae at sigurado akong masaya na siya sa pamilya niya kaya bakit ko pa sasabihin?.
I don't know but I'm crying too. I'm hurting, i'm really hurting for my child.
"Sorry baby but, b-but your dad is in a distant place. Sa ngayon ay nagtatrabaho lang siya at pag dumating ang araw na makita niyo siya ay marami d-daw siyang pasalubong sa inyo." I said while crying and hugging them.
"Is that true momma?. We still have a dad?." Caliah asked happily.
Nag aalinlangan man pero napatango nalang ako ng may ngiti sa labi. Ayoko silang masaktan, ayokong malaman nila na wala na kaming pag-asa sa ama nila. Ayokong umasa sila sa wala gaya ng ginawa ko nung mga panahon na nagpakatanga ako sakanya, i don't want them to be like me who still hoping even there is no need to expect.
Gusto ko silang lumaki ng malakas, matapang at hindi basta basta susuko sa anumang hamon ng buhay. I will raise them well with fear and courage.
"Kaya tigil na sa pag-iyak, sige kayo papanget kayo niyan." Sabay halakhak namin ng sabay sabay.
"Thanks po momma. And always remember, no matter what happens, we will here for you. Kuya and me loves you both." Masiglang saad ni Caliah at pinugpog ako ng halik sa buong pisngi.
"Yes momma and that's true, me and Caliah are always loves you and daddy." Tila napatigil naman ako sa sinabi ni Cayden.
"A-Ah yeah. Your D-Daddy and me are always loves you too both." Wala nakong nagawa kundi ang gantihan nalang rin sila ng isang malaking ngiti.
They hugged me tight, kissing my cheek and after embracing at each other, we leave at our house and we go to the airport.
"Momma, excited na po akong magbalik sa philippines." Caliah said and she giggled so i pinch her nose.
"Don't worry, uuwi na tayo." I said.
Sorry because momma doesn't give you a perfect family. Momma doesn't give you a dad like the other kids who playing with their own father, i'm so sorry my child.
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xoxo
04/18/21
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