Daniel Seavey Imagines

done playing the game

daniel has always been the love of my life. ever since i was twelve, i realized i had feelings for him. we've always been friends, since we were six. i pushed him off of a tree but that doesn't matter. you would think that since i have very strong feelings for him, that he would feel the same right? well you thought wrong. 

he has a girlfriend, that he loves dearly. i don't like her. it's not that she's a bad person, she's funny, sweet, and she's really nice to me. it's just about the fact that i'm jealous. i loved him first. and he knows it. i admitted it to him a long time ago. 

after a lot of crying, thinking, and third wheeling daniel and his girlfriend, i came to a conclusion. 

i drove to his house, and sat in my car for a second, crying. i'm going to let him go. it's toxic for myself. i know my worth, and daniel isn't going to ruin it for me. i wipe my tears, ready to say goodbye to years of friendship.

i walk in, since i never knock, and i walk into daniel's room. he looks at me, while he was playing guitar. luckily he doesn't have her around. 

"hey." i said, sitting down. he looks at me, concerned. "have you been crying?" he asks. i nod. he walks over to you and gives you a long hug. "why?" he asks. i sigh, and walk away from him. "look. you know that i love you right?" i asked. he pauses. "y/n you know that-"

"yes, i know that you love me too, but you don't love me like i love you." i said. he stayed silent. 

"i'm not here to ruin your relationship. i'm not, i promise." he looks at me. "i know." he sits back down. 

"i.....i think it's time that i let you go." i whispered. he looked at me. "what? what do you mean?" he said. i let the tears roll down my face. "and it's hard because a part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life." i say. he just continues to look at me. "but...the day dreaming, and the running in place....it's not healthy...and i can't do it anymore. not to you, or myself. because it's not fair to either of us." i said. 

he stayed silent. "i'm done with this stupid game we're playing daniel." i said, a little hurt that he won't say anything. after he didn't say anything, i nod my head and walk out. "wait, y/n!" he chases after me but i don't stop. 

he walks in front of me and grabs my shoulders. "you aren't leaving me." he said. 

"then what would i do?! just sit here and watch her be with someone i want to be with?!" i yell. "that's not fair." he whispers. "that's not fair, you said you wanted me to be happy." he said, keeping his cool. 

"i know. and i'm glad you are, daniel. but don't you realize that i want to be happy too?" i say. that seems to shut him up. "i'm not happy being around you two anymore." i whisper. "you're just gonna leave because you don't get what you want?!" daniel finally shouts. i flare my nostrils. "do NOT say that shit daniel!" i yell. "you know that's not what i mean!" i add. he pinches the bridge of his nose. 

"you're my best friend, y/n. i can't...i can't lose you. but you need to realize...that i can't lose her either." he says, referring to his girlfriend. "i'm not making you choose between me or her. okay?" i say, putting my hand on his shoulder. he nods. "and i do want you to be happy. and i know that you won't be happy with me." i shrug. "and that's okay." i whisper before brushing past him. he grabs my wrist again and pulls me towards him. "daniel let me go." i say. he shakes his head. i try and pull away but his grip is too strong. 

"daniel let me go!" i shout, but he doesn't budge. "daniel!" i say, tears flowing out of my eyes. "let me go!" i scream, pounding my fist against his chest. suddenly i can't breathe, my chest is completely empty. my breath is coming out in staggering breaths, like i just got punched in the stomach really hard. am i dying? i'm dying.

no. i'm not dying.

i'm having a panic attack. "y/n! look at me. it's okay, look at me." he says, grabbing my shoulders, making me look at him. he grabbed my hand and put it against his chest. "breathe with me, okay?" he says. i try, but it only makes it worse. "come on y/n, breathe with me." he says, as he notices this isn't working. "shit." he says, as he grabs the back of my head and makes contact with my lips. now my breath is completely gone, seeing as my lifetime crush is kissing me. i'm fully aware that he's just doing this to distract me, but i don't care. does this count? he pulls away, looking at me as my breath evens out. "you scared the shit out of me, y/n." i just looked at him. i shake my head. "you can't kiss me."  i said. "i know."  while he pulled me into a hug. "you can't leave me y/n...i won't let you.. i don't care how selfish that makes me." 

"i can't just sit here and watch you be with her..it's destroying me." i said after i calmed down. he stays silent. "i don't know what you want me to do." he whispers. i sigh. "maybe just give me a little time to get over you. i want to be friends. but i don't know how." i shrugged. "it'll happen. i'll give you some space for a little bit, and things can go back to normal." he smiled. i nod. i give him a hug, letting some tears fall onto his shirt. i let go and walk to my car, sitting in the seat, and driving away as he waved goodbye. he kissed me. and i hate that it made me smile because he technically cheated on his girlfriend. then i realize something that made me cry even harder;

he thinks i'll come back....but i know that i probably won't.  

A/N: double update ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh okay this one made me sad, but i haven't done anything like this where y/n and daniel aren't together but anywayzzzzz byeee