I Have to Tell You
-Harry-
After what seemed like hours of worrying and waiting, the doctor came back to tell me what was going on. "Ashley's doing fine for now. We'll move her back here in about an hour. She had a lot of mucus stuck in her throat from laughing so hard. She also had a lot of fluid in her lungs from the storm. We drained her lungs and she's doing fine. We'll let her wake up and get her bearings, then move her back here. Sound good?" I nodded my head yes and a sigh of relief escaped. The boys had gone back to the tour bus. They had had enough worries for one day. I was so scared Ashley wouldn't be alright. I think it was time to be honest with myself. I've never cared for anyone as much in my life as I do for Ashley. She's not someone I just want to have sex with and get rid of. I actually care about her. A lot. I know, I know, I've only known her for a couple days. But they've literally been the best couple days I've ever had. I don't have enough good things to say about her. And what if I lost her? All of these bad things keep happening to her. It's all my fault. I forgot about the storm and I can't tell her enough how sorry I am. I was so stupid. What if something I did killed her? What if that storm killed her last night? I wouldn't be able to live with myself. She's so down to earth. If she died, a part of me would go with her. I couldn't live without her. She's the most fun person to be around, yet she could be serious and sweet. She was everything I ever wanted. I don't think she'd ever think of me that way though. I may be attractive and everything, and yeah, I'm the lead singer of One Direction. But the way I feel about her couldn't be compared to any other feeling.
After a long process of thinking everything through, I decided that when Ashley arrived back in my room, I would tell her everything. I would tell her how I felt and everything that was going through my mind. I decided in good time, because as soon as I decided, a knock came on my door and she was wheeled in to the room, right next to my bed. She was definitely alive and awake, but she looked like she was in pain. I felt so bad. I gave her a small smile and pushed my curls to the right. She smiled back, but it wasn't her normal smile. She was sad, and hurt. The doctor came over to the right side of my bed since Ashley was on the left side, and she fixed my IV. "Now, Harry." She started while fixing my medicine. "You're doing better. Ashley just got done with surgery again and she's a bit weaker than you. Make sure she does okay, okay? I'll be back in a few hours to make sure you're both alright. If you need anything, just press this button on the wall, or yell fo rus. Okay?" I nodded and she left.
"Hello, love." I kissed Ashley's cheek. "How are you?"
She sighed. "Well, not so great. I can't believe I hurt myself from laughing too hard." She gave a small grin and I smiled. I guess it was time to let everything out.
"Uhm, while you were gone, I had a lot of time to think things through. So, basically, here's what I was thinking. I know we've only been dating for a couple days. But, I've realized that they have been the best couple days of my whole life. I love you, a lot. And I've been so stupid lately. I keep hurting you. I forgot about the storm, and I landed you in the hospital. I felt so bad. I keep thinking about what would happen if I lost you? Forever? I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I love you so much. You're the most beautiful, fun, and sweet girl I've ever met." She kept looking at me with those gorgeous blue eyes, and I got lost in them for a second, but then remembered what I was doing. "You mean the world to me. And I can't lose you. I have you; you're my dream girl. You're everything I have ever wanted." I kind of ran out of things to say, so it got a bit awkward. "So, uhm, basically, that's what I was thinking. I had to tell you. I had to let you know what you mean to me, just in case, you know, uhm, anything happened." I looked down and smiled, regaining confidence. I told the girl I loved how I felt. I don't think I've ever done that before, with someone this serious.
