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17. Realization

Five weeks. It had been five weeks since Naruto had seen the raven. At first he did fine keeping himself distracted with work, but eventually he started missing the raven's presence, his stoic ass face, his non-existant humor, his short meaningful replies, his strong, caring aura, his deep black eyes, his beautiful fac- No! What am i thinking? I can't think of him like that, he's my friend. I need to focus. Gosh!

But the more the blonde resisted feeling a certain way towards the raven, the more he wanted him around. I guess i just miss the bastard. I hope he's doing alright.

Shikamaru noticed the hokage's dilemma and decided to finally butt in one afternoon, "Naruto, you've been a little distant since sometime now, care to tell what it is?".

"What? I-it's nothi-"

"And before you say its nothing, i want you to remind yourself that you're talking to a Nara, im pretty sure I already know what the problem is, I just want to know what you're feeling about it", the advisor said as a matter of fact.

The blonde sighed, "Who am i kidding. Im sorry Shika, i didn't mean to be disrespectful towards you. Its just that, im not sure what i feel myself, i can't get a hold of my feelings towards..."

"Sasuke Uchiha", the Nara spoke for him.

"Well, yeah. Its just that, he's my friend and i miss him sure, but ever since he's gone i can't keep my mind off of him. Thats not normal right?"

Still thick in the head, Shikamaru thought. "Naruto, have you ever considered that you might...have feelings for Sasuke?".

"What!? Shika, he's my friend! And he's a man! I can't...i shouldn't...could I?", Naruto felt a bit scared of this possibility.

"We can't choose who we want Naruto. All you have to ask yourself is if you've ever felt like what you feel for Sasuke, with anyone else before. I hope you come to the right conclusion.", and with that he turned back to his work. Leaving the blonde deep in thought.

Naruto decided to take a break from work early that night and decided to walk to the village center like he used to do before...before he started to hang out with the raven every possible chance ge got. The blonde was thinking about what his advisor had said to him earlier, about having feelings for the raven.

I don't have feelings for that bastard, he's my friend, i can't think of him like that. And I-I'm not into men...am i? Though it seems like im not into women either, so...urgh why's this so fucking hard!

Suddenly he bumped into someone he hadn't met in a long time.

"Oh hey Hinata, what's up? how you're doing?"

"O-oh hi Naruto. Im just waiting for Kiba, w-we're dating now. Anyway im doing good, and you?"

"You are? Thats great, im happy for you, Kiba's a great guy. And me? Well I could be doing better", he gave out a nervous laugh, although genuinely happy for Hinata.

"Oh u-um do you want to talk about it?"

"Oh no i don't want to trouble you with it, besides youre waiting for Kiba, i don't want to intrude", the blonde said.

"Youre not intruding Naruto. Kiba is probably running late anyway. Do you want to sit somewhere?", with that, Hinata sat down on a bench near by, the blonde following suit.

Should i tell her? Will she judge me? Will she understand? But i need advice and shes a good friend. "U-um its just that I have been seeing t-this person for some time now, not romantically though. And recently this person had to leave on a mission, and since then my feelings have been all over the place. I miss h- this person all the freakin time to the point that i can't seem to focus sometimes. I do care a lot about the said person b-but it doesn't have to mean anything right? I...huh, I just want to feel normal again Hinata, what should i do?", Naruto finally managed to say, making it as discreet as possible.

A sound of soft giggles could be heard, Hinata was laughing, Naruto held up an eyebrow, "W-whats so funny?".

"Oh im sorry Naruto, its just the way you spoke about...well Sasuke".

The blonde was stunned, am i really that obvious?

"Naruto remember when we went out on that one date? I didn't pursue you after that, not because i didn't like you, but because there was obviously something missing, i realized that we were good friends but it couldn't be more than that. But, there's one more thing, i noticed that y-you clearly had feelings for someone else Naruto. You spoke about Sasuke time and time again with immense adoration."

"You obviously care about him, and now listening to you talk about him...you're falling for him Naruto. I know because i know the feeling very well myself."

Naruto sat there frozen, but before his mind could completely comprehend what Hinata just told him, they heard a voice.

"Hey Naruto! How you doing man?", it was Kiba, " sorry to have kept you waiting Hina", he said softly while kissing a blushing Huga's hand.

After exchanging a few words, the couple said their goodbyes, and left for their date night. Naruto just sat there for a long time after they had gone.

Am i really falling for him? I am aren't I...I'm falling for that bastard. Fuck.