Was I not good enough...

Draco's POV

It all started when I had to become a fucking death eater during the summer. I didn't tell anyone especially my girlfriend Briana because I didn't want her to be scared of me and I didn't want to put her in danger. I didn't have a choice since it was part of my family reputation. I talked to my parents telling them that I didn't want to put Briana in danger. They also didn't want to put her in danger so they implied that I should break up with her. Of course I couldn't just break up with her like that since I love her and I couldn't just throw away three years of us dating down the drain so I needed to come up with a plan. Their was this one person that me and Brians didn't like which was Astoria Greengrass. Little backstory on her I didn't like her but my parents told me I had to be friends with her since she was a pure blood so I had to hangout with her but Briana didn't know that. She also liked me as more then a friends but I always ignored that. I explained to my parents how Briana didn't like Astoria and maybe she could help. They all agreed and we started coming up with a plan. We came up that I would have to kiss Astoria in front of her or our friends so they would show her. I hated that fact that I would have to cheat on her and break up with her but I knew it was for her safety and that was the only thing that matter. The day had rolled up when I would sadly have to kiss Astoria. As we were trying to look for Y/n we couldn't find her after we checked the whole school so she was probably studying in her dorm which was kinda a bad thing. We see Blaise with our friend group so I knew it was a perfect opportunity to do it. Their was a bench near by so I told Astoria to follow my lead. We waited until Blaise had seen us so I grabbed Astoria by the waist and pulled her into a kiss we both heard a sound of someone taking a picture and we look up to see Blaise in front of me so we knew he had took the picture. He then starts punching me and I was bleeding a lot on the floor. Not gonna lie the kiss does have to be one of my worst time in my life and I hated every single thing about it. Astoria had left to her friends before and I was in the bathroom cleaning myself up. A few hours had passed by and I was heading to the common room. I enter to see Blaise and Pansy sitting on the couches. They both snapped their heads towards me and start coming at me. Pansy kept on yelling at me of how and why would I do that to Briana. I knew I couldn't tell them yet so I just stood their until Briana came down. She then looks at me and starts crying and I couldn't blame her since I broke her but I knew it was for her own safety. I then started to apologize but she started yelling at me of why I didn't but I obviously
couldn't tell her the real reason so I had came up with a stupid reason. After a while Astoria walked in which was bad for Briana but good for the plan. A couple of minutes had passed by of yelling and crying and then Briana had asked how many times I had "cheated" I didn't say anything as it was all part of the act but then Astoria spoked up and said that I cheated on her five times during our time we were dating and that we had slept together which obviously was part of the plan . After that Briana calls Astoria a slut which I was shocked since that's something she wouldn't say. She then looks at me and tells me that she's breaking up with me and that she wished she had never loved me or met me and ran back to her dorm. Of course I was heart broken but like I said it was for her own good. After a while of Pansy yelling at me we here screams and crying in pain. We all run up to the dorms and we here it coming from Briana's dorm. We got their to see the door locked, we tried picking it but it wouldn't budge so Blaise kicked down the door. We then run in to see Briana passed out with a lot of blood around her. I pushed them aside and rushed Briana to the hospital wing. I then put her on a bed and the doctors did their things and told us to wait until she woke up. A few hours go by and she finally wakes up. I couldn't believe she would try to end her life because of me I thought. She then looks up at me and asks why I'm here. I tried to apologized but then she started to yell at me which I deserved but I wanted her safe. She then told me to leave and that she didn't want to ever see me and that she wants me out her life. I sadly then left with tears slipping down my face. The last thing I heard was her asking them "will this pain ever go away?" And with that more tears escape my eyes. I then headed to my dorm and locked myself in. I didn't take the effort to class so I didn't go for two days until I heard that Briana got out which meant she would be going to her classes the next day so I thought I would go to see her even though she wouldn't want to see me. I wake up the next morning to see that I was late. I only got to brushed my team and put on my robes but I didn't get to do my hair which was all messy and didn't get a chance to fix my tie. On my way to class I see Astoria and Adrain making out which was disgusting but was happy since she would no longer be all over me. I then grabbed her hand since we were both gonna be late. She also had messy hair and robes. We finally get their and Snape gave us both detention. I then see Briana run out the classroom with tears in her eyes. I soon realized she probably was thinking about the wrong think. FUCK I thought to myself. I finished all my classes and headed to my dorm, when I got there I see a letter on my bed. I picked it up and opened it. It read-