Was I not good enough...

"YOU BROKE ME"

As soon as I got to my dorm I locked my room and headed straight to my bed. I laid down on my bed facing my pillow crying for the hundredth time already. A few minutes had passed by and I got up to my bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. "Was I not good enough?" I asked myself. I opened my cabinet door and took out a sharp razor. "Is this really what I want to do." I questioned myself. After a minute I started to cut deep in to my skin. Yes it did hurt as hell but it also felt as if all the pain had left my body. I guessed I had passed out since all I heard was Pansy yelling out my name before everything had gone black. I wake up to see Pansy and Blaise on one side and on the other side I saw Draco. "What was he doing here?" I thought to myself. "DRACO what are you doing here?" I yelled with all the strength I had in my body. I saw everyone snapped their head up as soon as I yelled his name. "BRIANA? Your awake how do you feel, are you okay, do you need anything?" Pansy asked. "What is he doing here?" I said completely ignoring Pansy's questions. "Well after you said that you wish you never met me or loved me, Pansy and Blaise were yelling at me but I was telling them that I was gonna go talk to you. After a while we heard your screams so we all looked at each other and ran straight to your dorm but it was locked so Blaise had to kicked down your door and by the time we were in Pansy had found you on the floor with blood all over you and yelled out your name but you had already passed out. So I carried you all the way to the hospital wing waiting for you to wake up." He explained. I looked up at Pansy and Blaise to see if he was telling the truth. "Is it truth?" I asked them. "Yea." Blaise said quietly. "Briana I'm truly am sorry and I didn't mean to hurt you this bad but-." He started saying but I had interrupted him by saying this. " NO DRACO YOU DON'T GET TO CHEAT ON ME AND THEN EXPECT ME TO FUCKING FORGIVE YOU. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO CHEATED ON ME FIVE TIMES, FIVE FUCKING TIMES DRACO. CANT YOU SEE THAT I LOVED YOU DRACO. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO THREW AWAY OUR RELATIONSHIP IN THE TRASH LIKE WE HAD NOTHING GOOD. WERE THE THREE YEARS WE HAD MEANT NOTHING TO YOU? HUH DID YOU THINK I WAS A WASTE OF YOUR TIME. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO MADE ME DO THIS. YOU WERE THE ONE THAT MADE ME CUT MYSELF. GOSH DANG IT DRACO I FUCKING HATE YOU RIGHT NOW DRACO!" I yelled. "Oh come on Briana? You don't mean that right?" He asked with tears streaming down his face. "YOU KEEP ON SAYING THAT AND OF COURCE I MEAN IT, I MEAN IT WITH ALL MY FUCKING HEART DRACO. WHAT HURTS THE MOST IS THAT I LOVED YOU DRACO I FUCKING LOVED YOU SO MUCH AND YOU CHEAT ON ME WITH THE ONE PERSON I WAS INSECURE ABOUT, THE ONE PERSON YOU TOLD ME NOT TO WORRY ABOUT. NOT ONLY THAT BUT YOU SLEPT WITH HER... TWICE DRACO YOU FUCKING SLEPT WITH HER TWICE. IT HURTS ME SO MUCH DRACO. YOU BROKE ME DRACO. YOU KNOW JUST GET OUT I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN SO GET OUT AND NEVER COME BACK." I said with tears streaming down my face. "But Brian-" He started. "GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE, I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING SEE YOU AGAIN DRACO." I cried. He then left and Pansy got on the bed holding me and stoking my hair once again like the begging. "Will this pain ever go away?" I asked her. "Of course darling it'll just take time but you'll get their." She said. "Yea and we'll help you get their Briana." Blaise added. After a while I had drifted to sleep with Pansy and Blaise by my side.