(Osamu Dazai x Reader) The Choice....(COMPLETED)

Irreplaceable..

-(A Few Hours Later)-

( (Y/N)'s POV )

I ran down the hallways and staircases of the building, searching and looking for Dazai as best as I could. As soon as the little meet-up was finished, all four of them left without saying a word...

Dazai on the other hand...had the most heartbroken expression I had ever seen.

I bumped into a few people on the way, apologizing and bowing before continuing on my journey. I didn't even see Chuuya, Akutagawa, or Odasaku as I made my way down the many halls and rooms. I then noticed a door at the end of one hall that looked....bloody?

I looked around before making my way towards it, wondering what could possibly be behind it. As I slowly opened the door...

"P-PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU, I DON'T KNOW WHO THAT IS!" 

I stopped, frozen as I glanced at what I saw below me...a bunch of men were gathered on the sides. But in the middle of them...was..

"Look....I'm sadly not in the greatest of moods today," Dazai growled, as he pulled his fist back and punched the person in front of him roughly. Blood coming out of his mouth as his head jerked to the right.

"DEVIL, YOU FUCKING DEVIL! DIE IN THE ROTTEN HELL YOU CAME FROM!" The man then spat blood at Dazai, the air in the room now tense.

"Ah.....right...maybe I will. For now though.." Dazai grabbed his gun swiftly and shot the man in the chest. The loud noise made me gasp, turning the attention to me now. Dazai lowered his hand before looking behind at me...his eyes cold and empty now suddenly widened with confusion in the blink of an eye.

"What are you doing here?" He asked, breaking the silence.

"D-Dazai...I wanna talk to you.."

"Not now, if you can't tell I'm busy right now." He placed his gun back in his waist pocket.

"D-Dazai please...I...." I continued to stand there as he continued to ignore me. He stared making his way towards the door his men following after him....

"H-hm?" Dazai turned around, I tightened my grip on his sleeve. Looking up at him with pleading eyes. 

"....Dazai...." 

"B-Boss, if we don't go now we might be late for-,"

"Go without me. I'll take responsibility for being absent, and take that corpse out of here..." there was a silence before two men walked towards the dead body and picked it up. They then walked out of the room first, followed by the other men. As the door shut, I released my grip on Dazai's sleeve and moved back.

"Dazai...I just wanted to say I-," 

But I couldn't finish my sentence, Dazai walked over to me and placed his hand under my chin. His hands warm as it touched me...

"You know....you really know how to make me pissed off yet not at the same time..." he whispered, using his other hand to grab my waist. He started coming closer...making me hold in my breath..

"D-Dazai what..."

"Tell me...tell me why you're here." 

"......because....I had no choice."

"No choice?" Dazai scoffed, releasing his grip on me. "From what I was told...you could've left this all behind and moved somewhere far away. Even if you have a skill, apparently you can control it well so it wouldn't even be a problem. So no, you disnt have 'no choice' (Y/N)."

I clenched my fist, starting to suddenky get irritaed by his words. "Why in the hell do you care? It's not like to want to be here....."

"Ha...okay then, go." He pointed at the door, "Go and love the life that you wanted...the one I took away from you!" 

"Idiot! You didn't take anything from me-,"

"If you never met me at that damn police station you wouldn't even be here! You wouldn't have gotten captured, sick, or have to worry about being killed!"

"BUT I DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT!" 

"WHY?! ADMIT IT, ADMIT THAT YOU HATE THE LIFE YOU HAVE! ADMIT YOU'D RATHER HAVE NOT MET ME!"

I don't know why.....but the more I looked at the Dazai in front of me...the more I wondered what this feeling was that I sensed from him...

"STOP ASSUMING SHIT! WHO SAID I HATED LIFE WITH YOU?!?"

"DON'T EVEN-,"

"THE REASON I JOINED THE MAFIA, WAS SO THAT I COULD STAY WITH YOU DAZAI! I-I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE YOU!!" I felt tears streaming down my cheeks as I stared at Dazai, his expression unchanged but....

Hurt...

"I can't just leave you....you're.....irreplaceable....that's why I want to tell you everything that I've kept hidden...so I don't have to worry about you finding out without me knowing....I can tell you in all truth and honesty because," I wiped my tears away before smiling at him.

"You're just that special to me Dazai..." 

"......Ppft-,"

I tilted my head to the side as Dazai started laughing, it was a cute laugh...one I have heard come out of him before.

"W-what..." I said, as I pouted my lips with a flushed face.

"Interesting...very interesting." He covered his face with his hands for a few seconds before looking back at me. I knew that the Dazai I was looking at now, was the one I knew...

Loved?

"Honestly, I know already about how it happened. Mori gave us all the files and we read it...I'm sorry you had to deal with that." 

"Its fine...."

"A skill that makes someone happy...for the cost of their life huh?"

"Mhm...apparently someone on my mother's side had a skill just like that. They ended up killing themselves with it though...wanting to die for killing so many with their skill. So my parents made sure to teach me, and made me control it. So now I can touch someone and not have to worry about killing them....but ever sense I used it on my parents that night..."

I glanced down at my hand...remembering my parents pained yet happy faces when I used my skill on them.

"I get afraid I might do that to someone else..."

"I'm sure you won't," Dazai smiled, as he walked over to me and patted me he rly on the head. "I know you can control your skill...cause your the strongest and smartest woman I ever met in my life, who I know can handle anything that comes her way."

"I-Idiot.." I looked away from him, not wanting him to see my smile.

"But, I want you to promise me something Mooncake.."

"Hm? What's that?" 

"That you'll do your best to stay safe. That you'll never leave my side and let me protect you.."

".....w-what?!? I-I can protect myself-,"

"Please," he grabbed my hand and squeezed it, "honestly...if I know you're okay I won't get worried..." he mumbled. I stared at him for a few seconds and giggled under my breath.

"Okay...I guess you can protect me Osamu~"

"Oh ho, calling me by my first name now are we?"

"I mean why not?" I grinned, pulling my hand gently out of his grip. I walked towards the door and turned around at him, with a grin still on my face.

 "Now then Mooncake-chan, you read for work?" He asked, now standing beside me. I nodded as I opened the door back to the hallway.

"Of course."

(END OF CHAPTER)

(Heyooo, sorry I kinda rushed this one but it came out better then I thought it was going to😁! A new chap that got added, I hoped you enjoyed it!! Thank you and have a good rest of your day/evening!! Bye bye!)