(Osamu Dazai x Reader) The Choice....(COMPLETED)

A Broken Life...

(Young Dazai's POV)

What's the point of loving someone..I don't understand really what the point is...

People either die on you...or abandoned you...

"YOU'RE A FREAK, WHO IN THE HELL WOULD ADOPT YOU?!"

No one....no one loves me...

I mean who would?

A child who's parents had abandoned them....forced to be the one to take all the hits and blame....the one who receives the most hate from others....the one with the most scars and bruises..

As I turned to my right a cat was watching me, it's eyes shone from the moonlight above us. I continued to stare at it and it continued to stare at me...as if looking into my soul...

"You're probably the only one, who's ever looked at me this long before.." I whispered, as the cat licked it's paw.

I sat near the end of the alleyway I was in and glanced at my arm, covered in bandages to hide the injuries and memories of my life...

If only I had a life...that wasn't so dark and cold.....

One that made me have...a purpose...a reason to keep living....

"Oh? Are you lost young boy?" I looked up and saw a man in a doctor's coat walking towards me. I glared at him before looking away.

"Oh come now, I won't hurt you." He said, now standing in front of me. I slowly turned my head towards him. He had shiny short black hair, a dark coat, and purple eyes..

"Sorry....I'm fine." I replied, standing up and walking away.

"Hmmm...I feel as though I've seen you somewhere before.." the man's shadow engulfed mines as he stood directly behind me, sending a chill down my spine. I quickly turned to see him smiling happily at me.

"You're Osamu Dazai-kun aren't you? From the orphanage down the street?"

"H-How-,"

"Rumor went around that a child had killed another child a few weeks ago....no one knew why but the child who killed the other was instantly blamed and looked down at. Disciplined extremley for his actions," he then knelt down closer to me, "and I happened to be the doctor who examined the death scene..." there was silence between us.

"So what...I have reasons-,"

"To kill another child like yourself? Oh I'm sure you do..." but something about this man made me feel...scared..

"How did you know it was me though....that I'm Dazai Osamu?"

"The files of the case were something I was given, of course yours was there too." He then smiled at me again.

"Fine then, you're smart, congrats. What do ya want with me?" I growled.

"You're supposed to be in juviee soon right? That's why you ran away?"

"So what?!" I yelled, getting angrier by the second.

"I'm just curious....why in the world would a child kill another child?" He asked, now sitting on the ground. I glared at him for awhile before looking up at the moon..

"He hurt it...."

"Hm? Hurt what?"

"That kid.....He was hurting a cat and it's kittens that day....beating them to death...and laughing like it was a game of some sorts...it disgusted me," I don't know why, but as I stood up and glanced down at the man, his eyes widened.

"So I killed him....out of rage I guess....I don't even know myself." I turned to where the cat from earlier was, but it was already gone.

"Interesting...very interesting.." the man then started to laugh, making me back away from him.

"Dazai, yes? May I ask you a question?" 

"What.."

"How did you feel after you killed him?" 

"...."

How I felt...to see him dead in front of my eyes...his blood stained on my hands and shirt..

"I...don't know..."

"Then let me ask you this as well....have you ever once in your life felt like you were useful to someone...like you had a purpose in this life of yours?"

".....Never....it would honestly be better if I just died on the street somewhere." I replied, as a long silence started between us..the wind suddenly blowing harder then before.

The man then sighed before saying, "If I were to tell you, that you can have a purpose in your life...would you listen?" My eyes jolted up to him, my life....have a purpose?

"Hm, by the look in your eyes I can tell your interested. You see I have a plan, but in order to do so I need a right hand man I can trust first."

"Oh? What makes you think I won't betray you..."

"...Don't know, I just have the feeling you won't," he then held out his hand in front of him, "So then...Osamu Dazai, do you want to have a reason to keep going and living your life?" As I looked at his hand images came to my mind.

A woman had appeared.....she looked beautiful and so familiar...she was smiling......laughing.....calling my name....humming......crying.....

I wonder who that was...

I wonder if I helped her in her life before...

I wonder...where she is now..

I looked up at the man and before I knew it my hand was in his as the moon shone brighter then before. "Sure...why not?" I said, making the man's smile bigger and brighter.

"Glad to hear that." He grinned, releasing his grip.

"Who...who are you though? What can I call you?" I asked, as he started walking away as I followed him.

"Hmmm...Mori...just call me Mori." He replied, as we continued walking in the dead of the night.

But for some reason....as I left the alleyway....I imagined a voice in my head as I turned the corner...walking into the big Yokohama city.

"Dazai...my handsome baby Dazai..I love you...I love you so much..."

Who the voice belonged to...I had no clue...all I knew...was that my new life...has finally begun.

(END OF CHAPTER)

(This was interesting to me not gonna lie! Thanks for reading and have an amazing rest of your day/evening!! Bye bye!!)