I want your Pain (BoyxBoy)

Putting holes in happiness

They drove away before jerodie had the chance to wave back and he started his lonley walk back to

his house-the last place he wanted to be. 

Brian doesn't remember speaking of love jeordie.

Love has all but left you once again.

Things will go back to how they were, and forever remain.

He is just a friend.

He doesn't want you, you know that.

These voices filled his head and left him void of happiness.

Jeordie was locked inside him self, subconsciously walking home.

His legs knew the way.

It was growing dark, the streets were empty so he allowed a few sobs and tears 

be emmited.

He soon realized that he was in the park he liked to sit in sometimes...which meant 

he was almost home.

He arrived at the door of his house, and stood there for a few moments to wipe away the tears and

collect himself.

He opened the door.

His step mother Mariah Yelled out to Jeordies dad "GEORGE! HES HERE!"

"oh..shit." barely managed to escaped Jeordies lips.

"ABOUT TIME! JEORDIE OSBORNE WHITE GET IN HERE NOW!"

His voice struck fear into the skinny boy, as it sounded like he had been drinking again.

His hands trembled as he walked into the kitchen.

"Why do i bother? Hmm? You Skipped school, and are friends with some weird fucking kid, and now you 

wear makeup. tell me. Are you gay or something?! Do you want to go anywhere in life?! 

BECAUSE YOUR SHOWING ME THAT RAISING YOU TO BE A GOOD KID WAS A MISTAKE!

YOUR HAIRS A MESS! YOU LOOK LIKE A GIRL! AND WHO'S THIS KID YOU'VE BEEN SKIPPING SCHOOL WITH?!

TELL ME!"

"..umm..w-well..i...didn't...mean too...skip.." he said trying  not to break down.

"OH YOU DIDN'T MEAN TOO? HAHA WELL THAT MAKES IT ALL BETTER NOW DOESN'T IT?"

"..no..but-"

"SHUT UP! WHO'S THE FREAK?!"

"hes..no..no one"

"Well that's nice then. so you wont mind if you never see him or talk to him again?"

"NO!...Well...hes really nice and.."

"OH SO HE IS SOMEONE?! YOU LIED TO ME THEN!"

Jeordie wasn't feeling well. he hated this. He Hated the shouting. And despite everything 

he loved Brian.

"I DIDNT LIE! HES MY FRIEND AND YOU CANT STOP ME FROM SEEING HIM!"

"GET TO YOUR ROOM BOY!"

"NO!"

With that George stomped over to Jeordie, tipsy from alcohol, and delivered a Pain full

fist to jeordies face.

Jeordies body kissed the ground.

His father was about to strike him again but Jeordie Managed to crawl away, get up, grab his bag and 

leave out the door. 

This time, Jeordie was thankful for his fathers drunkenness or he was sure that he would be lying unconscious on

the floor.

Jeordies cries filled the once still night air. This time he didn't care who saw him cry,

becuase this time there was no one to show him sympathy.

Not even his best friend.

He ran to the park, his school back slung over his shoulder carelessly.

He sat on the park bench and was quickly overwhelmed at how much pain he was in.

Jeordie put his legs up on the bench and hugged his knees to his chest. 

Even doing that caused pain and he wept, for he remembered every time he fell into 

Brian's arms. Every time he held him tightly.

And how he so bitterly threw it all away.

He got out a packet of cigarettes from his bag, and lit one with his star wars lighter.

The niccotine calmed his nerves abit, and settled him down, although he was still tearing uncontrollably.

He could hear the yells of the boys finishing up their game of football, on the feild located quite close to the park.

Hopefully they dont come through here, Jeordie thought. At least its dark, they probbly wont see me.

Their laughs got closer. 

Jeordie took some long, deep drags on his cigarette.

"HEY!" one of them yelled.

"WHOS THAT?!" shouted another. 

Jeordie pretend, and prayed that they were talking to someone else.

"YOU! ON THE BENCH! HELLO?!" 

Jeordie turned to face them.

"oh hey, its the new kid, he hangs out with that freak Warner." he heard one say, not 

taking any care for Jeordie not to hear.

they all came and crowded round him and smirked to themselves.

The biggest one of them all, Leon even sat and put his arm around Jeordie.

"so how you going tonight? wheres your boyfriend?" He teased and all the other boys laughed hysterically.

"just..just go away" Sighed Jeordie, the tones of helplessness weaved in his voice.

"Ohh just go awayy" Leon mocked, sending the boys once again into a fit of stupid laughter.

"Please. Leave me ALONE." He retaliated, getting angry now.Life hated him, so why shouldn't he hate life?

"Listen.Jeordie. I dont like the way your talking to me. And i dont like the way your boyfriend though he

was above us. And I don't.Like.Fags.

so boys. Lets say we "settle this"?" Leon Grinned at the boys, and sinister intentions filled his eyes.

Jeordie gasped and within just seconds he was pinned down on the park bench by three larger guys, while Leon started taking 

Jeordies clothes off.

"STOP!! JUST STOP!!! HELP!!! SOME ONE! PLEASE!" He shouted. No one came.

He yelled, he screamed, he kicked, he cried. There was no one. The boys who pinned him down thought 

the scene was humorous and continued to throw insults at him. 

Once Jeordie was completely deprived of clothes, Leon Grabbed Jeordies Cigarette from his hand and stubbed 

it out on his chest.

He cried out in Anguish.

Leon stole Jeordies Lighter, went through Jeordies bag, and lit another.

And stubbed it out on his chest.

He did so with the seven remaining cigarettes. 

They pushed him to the ground and started beating him. 

Jeordie decided to leave. he had left his body and was now in his happy place.

The first Place he thought of was hells pass. walking through the deserted streets Hand in hand

With Brian. Bri-pie. He almost smiled.