I look at Tori. Tears fill my eyes and she pulls me close, closer than we've ever been. I cry on her shoulder for the next hour or so.
"Honey, its okay. I'll tell James if you want," she says.
I shake my head and get up. My head is spinning but I walk to my room anyways. When I get to my room I grab my phone and text James.
*Hey babe, quick question, remember that night we had sex a couple months back?*
*Yes baby.*
*Did you use protection?*
*Baby, I don't remember.*
*Okay....*
*Can I ask why?*
*Baby.... I'm pregnant....*
*Oh. I'll be right over. Call the doctor and tell them your coming over.*
*Mkayyy.*
I make Tori call because through all the tears I can't really speak.
"They said you can come over right away," she says.
I nod my head and lay on my bed. Tori comes over sits beside me and plays with my hair. I look at her through my tears. She gently brushes away the tears that have already made a waterfall down my face and then looks into my eyes.
She leans in really close, stops right before her lips touch mine, and then whispers in my ear, "Its all going to be okay."
Her whisper is so sweet, so sexy, and it makes her irresistible. She kisses me. Her sweet lips combining with the salty taste of my tears. We do this for another hour. Where is James? I don't know. I don't care right now.
I sit up and put my arms around her as she pulls me onto her lap. We keep kissing, our perfect little kisses making everything better. She starts to undo the buttons on the button up shirt I'm wearing. It takes me a minute to realize what she's doing. I pull back. Oh how badly I wish I could have gone through with that.
"I don't want to do this now. Especially while James is supposedly on his way. Plus, I'm pregnant," I say.
She looks into my eyes and I kiss her once again. She kisses me back and I know she is willing to wait for me. But will I ever be ready? I kiss her again, still sitting in her lap, and realize someday I might just want her to be all mine.
