gamer boy - minsunglix

fourteen

"you k-kissed him" jisungs voice was shaken as he turned around to look at the two boys in the back seat.

minho looked at his boyfriend in confusion "yeah...is there a probl-"

"minho don't lie to me. do you like felix?" jisung blurted out, pain affiliated with his voice.

"wh- no! well i like him as a friend, he's always been our friend- why do you think i like him?"

"because! you've always told me that your kissing mean something! i've never even kissed felix, because we've always said that our kisses always mean something even if it's a simple gesture..." jisung had tears trickling down his cheeks as he stared back at his bestfriend and boyfriend.

"this is all my fault. jisung don't be mad at minho, i shouldn't have gotten involved in the first place...we should stop, all of us." felix felt horrible knowing that if he hadn't of gotten involved in letting them touch him, then none of this would've happened.

"i'm sorry felix, you don't have to apologize. but maybe we shouldn't sleep together anymore."

"no worries ji, i told you we could stop if you or minho we're uncomfortable with it. you know what, let me drive the rest of the way and you and minho can talk about it in the back."

jisung softly nodded. he was truly grateful to have a friend that was so cooperative and understanding.

time when by and felix drove them in the direction of hyunjins house while minho and jisung talked it out in the back. they'd come to an understanding that they were in a relationship and felix was just their friend of course.

but it seemed as if one of them was lying; one of them indeed had underlying feelings for felix.

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soon enough the had arrived and hyunjins house.

as the three childhood friends made their way to the door, it opened up to reveal a man in a suit, the man being non other than mr.yoon. "hello boys, hyunjin and his friends await upstairs on the second level left wing floor of the house, i'm sure you won't have trouble finding them. they are being quite loud after all."

damn so he rich rich. is what the three thought.

they made their way down the marbled hall, listening to the sound of faint music prance off the rooms. eventually they set foot onto hyunjins floor and was greeted by an enthusiastic jeongin "yay! you made it! now come along, we're all in the guest room we have pizza and drinks!" the fox like boy then dragged them all against their will into a room where the rest of the boys sat, occupying a large couch.

"now minho, jisung, you two go say hello to everyone while i talk to felix." jeongin let the couple enter the room while him and felix stayed outside of the room to talk.

"did you tell jisung?"

"yes jeongin, don't worry."

"you promise that he's okay and you're not lying?"

"i promise, you can even talk to jisung if you need reassurance, but also...are you okay?" felix didn't mean to be so sudden with the question, but he was truly worried. he found it concerning how jeongin was so serious when it came to this subject. not only that, but the fact this boy was never serious about anything. always joking, and fucking around, not giving a care in the world if it's mentally healthy or not.

"i-i'm fine, why?" his voice cracked and his smile was definitely forced.

"hey i know we only just met, but i can tell something is really off." felix rested his hand on the youngers shoulder to show him his sincerity.

that's when jeongin knew felix was someone he could trust and finally let out how he really felt. "it hurts felix. i'm constantly putting on a fucking mask and saying stupid inappropriate jokes n shit to make people laugh. the past week it's been so nice to finally be with hyunjin because he's my first friend over ever made and he makes me so genuinely happy...but in a platonic way. and i know he has real feelings for me and it just makes me feel like an asshole for continuing to fuck with him and not return the feelings. i love him, don't get me wrong. but it's just a platonic feeling. and on top of this feeling, i have to deal with my feelings that i have for chan. i can't explain it, he just makes me feel so safe. even when he's constantly ignoring me, i feel at home. like when we first met, he came over and we watched movies and chatted. i hadn't felt so safe before. and then at the beach, we built sand castles together and talked about our private lives. he's the type of guy i feel safe around to just open up too. and even if i don't have a chance with him, i just want him to stay around just as a friends. but i always have to be fucking up because i get nervous i'll say something about my past so i say some stupid perverted joke. i fucking hate myself, felix. i don't know what this feeling is, but it hurts, it hurts so bad to know that he wants nothing to do with me."

by the end of his rant, he was crying into felix arms as the older held him tightly. before felix could even begin a sentence he glanced over to the end of the hallway to see chan who had just exited the restroom.

i wonder how long he was standing there.

the expression on chans face was hard to read, but you could tell he was some form of upset. it broke him to see jeongin is such a state...because of him.

the eldest slowly approached the two boys and felix nodded and let go of jeongin. "hey innie, i think someone wants to talk to you."

the fox like boy turned around to meet chan, who he thought was going to scold him, but instead pulled him into their first real hug.

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felix had left those two out in the hallway to discuss that matter, since clearly jeongin would be able to open up more about his feelings to the person he felt most at home with.

as of now, felix was sitting next to changbin while the older had his arm around his waist. fucking heaven if you ask felix.

meanwhile jisung sat on minhos lap while minho distracted himself by talking to hyunjin, who was surprisingly a really funny, but dramatic, guy.

but every once in a while, minho would steal glances at felix who was snuggling close to changbin while the older played with the hem of his pants.

he didn't like seeing felix with changbin.

while minho was lost in his thoughts as hyunjin ranted about random topics, jisung stood up and said he was going to the bathroom.

"okay sweetie, don't take too long."

"can you come with me?"

"yeah of course" minho stood up and followed jisung to the bathroom.

"when you guys get back, we're going to play a game, so don't take your time and hurry up. also, find chan and jeongin and bring them back please" hyunjin announced waving off to the boys.

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i seriously write abt jeongin just as much as the main ship in this book...whoops