gamer boy - minsunglix

thirty-one

mid way through the movie jisung honestly couldn't stand the fact he felt excluded from his relationship yet let them go home alone while he stayed and had fun. for a moment he was laughing and mildly forgetting about his relationship troubles, but that died down once everyone had decided to get some rest.

hyunjin and seungmin had went back to the elders room, jeongin and chan were sleeping on the bed in the guest room while kiha and changbin shared the couch. as for jisung, he'd slipped into the bathroom nearly an hour ago and hasn't stopped crying since.

his boyfriends were probably having fun without him and here he was alone in a bathroom at 1am because he didn't feel like he was good enough. he felt like his feelings were being ignored and honestly they had been. felix and minho both didn't think about the boys thoughts the entire time they did actions that they thought were only hurting one another.

he felt like an inconvenience.

there were subtle knocks on the door that rushed jisung to wipe his tears and put on a fake smile. "c-come in"

the door slowly turned to reveal changbin of all people, who he quite frankly didn't want to see...at all. "jisung are you alright? i heard you crying and it was keeping me up because i can't help but think it's my fault."

he wasn't wrong, but it wasn't necessarily all his fault when he was only going along with what felix was doing. in all defense he was told it was okay since it was an open relationship. jisung turned to the shorter make and wiped his tears again that couldn't help but fall. "changbin...c-can you take me home?"

although changbins question was answered or not, that was not of his concerns because he already knew the answer. now all he had to do was take jisung home, it was the least he could do for causing so much conflicting in a relationship that wasn't even his own. "of course"

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"NO FUCK YOU MINHO! THIS IS ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT!" felix screamed as he pounded on minhos chest before the older grabbed his wrists still.

"felix calm the fuck down! i fucking know okay! you don't have to keep telling me over and over when i already fucking know! just stop with the fucking anger issues, i thought taking away video games would help but youre clearly worse than i thought!" minho yelled into the youngers faces as he gripped onto his wrist firmly, probably a bit too hard but neither boy was focusing on physical pain when the mental pain was much greater at the current moment.

"what if he doesn't want us back huh?! what if he chooses that he's better off without us? it'll be all your fucking fault he left. if you would've just told me that i was being too friendly with changbin instead of getting flirty and wanting to fuck someone else while right next to him then this wouldn't have fucking happened!" he lowered his voice a bit, but it was still pure rage seeping through his voice.

tears began to escape minhos eyes out of pure guilt and anger. he was mad at felix for being right and also the fact he did nothing in this past month to help the boys anger issues, if anything they got worse. he felt useless. lastly he felt guilt for now inflicting mental pain for not just one but both of his boyfriends. "i know, felix. it's all my fault and i'm sorry. i'm so sorry i'm ruining everything." he wiped away his tears before releasing his grip on felixs wrists. he then slowly turned away a walked out of their bedroom.

felix dropped to his knees and cried into his hands. he felt like this whole relationship was falling apart. and now that he had succeeded at making minho cry, it didn't feel as good as he thought it would. he didn't feel superior.

he felt pathetic.

he now not only played with changbins feelings, but he managed to make both of his boyfriends run away from messing with their emotions as well.

so i guess in a way you could call him a gamer boy for playing with so many peoples emotions as if their feelings didn't matter.

ironic isn't it.

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"thank you changbin, this talk really cleared things up for me. i can see that you're a good person, i'm sorry felix led you on like that before but i assure you he's sorry. so thank you for the ride, really. you're a good friend." jisung hopped out of the males car and began to wave goodbye. "oh and one last thing, no more office sex with him. this relationship isn't open anymore."

"no worries, i won't lay a finger on him. plus, i think me and kiha really hit it off tonight." changbin laughed and waved goodbye to the younger male before driving off back to hyunjins house where kiha promised to keep his spot warm in bed.

now for jisung, he walked into the house and listened to screaming upstairs. his heart felt as if it had stopped. he had cause his boyfriends to clearly get in an aggressive verbal fight. the yelling was intense and it surprisingly wasn't just felix.

he wanted to drop his things and run upstairs but as soon as he started, the silence overcame the yelling. the silence terrified jisung. he wondered if one of them was hurt, he couldn't imagine one of his boyfriends getting physical, but the thought lingered. that's until minho came running down the stairs crying.

jisung dropped his bag and ran to his boyfriend, capturing him in a warm embrace.

"j-jisung?"

"why are you crying minho? are you okay?"

"i hurt you both. i'm sorry, i really am."

"it's okay, i know your sorry and i forgive you. but is felix okay?"

felix had exited his room after hearing jisungs voice, not hesitating to make way down the stairs carefully. "i'm okay. i'm so fucking sorry to both of you two. i'm such an asshole for what i did."

"i'm just pathetic for thinking you guys didn't want me."

"and i'm ignorant for being childish."

they all slightly laughed away the tears. "i guess we're all a little stupid then"

"you know what else we all are?" jisung giggled.

"boyfriends?"

"yeah that too, but i was going to say horny but that might just be me."