Innocence

Chapter 9

It's funny how one person can change your world. They come in out of nowhere and turn your whole universe upside down. They make this effect on your life that was so unexpected, you just go with it.

I was so shocked when Cody came into my life, he controlled everything I did. But it wasn't like with my parents, with them every movement I made was evaluated. Every choice I made was carefully thought over, almost like a plan. It had to go off without a hitch.

My academics were outstanding, my grades top notch compared to others. My social life though was non-existent, "introverted" as my parents would like to put it. But over the past few months, both changed drastically.

My grades plunging into the ground with a great pound of disappointment and my social life had suddenly blown through the roof. I was partying every moment, doing drugs and substances I didn't even know existed.

I was so aware of my decisions that every time I tossed back a drink or took a hit, a slight panic of the kids in the photos they showed at school who had done drugs, commenced to exist inside of me. Seeing the aftermath of them sent me into a frenzy of hysterics but the only thing that would demolish that dread were the materials surrounding me.

Ever since I was a child these ideas were put into my head; that the only right way was the way my parents sought of. But when I met him, he taught me that there is more than one way of right. That being yourself is the right way and you shouldn't give a shit of what others thought. He taught me that the world isn't all fun in games.

All of the ways he spoke was inspiring, the way he spoke about how things could be in the future. The way he spoke about our choices in life and how we didn't have to choose the traditional path. Maybe it was the drugs and alcohol talking, but I believed him.

I still do.

Even with the way he hurt me, I still love him. Every fiber of my being loves him and the way he spoke and the way he thought. The way he walked and the way he got so into something and how passionate he was with a certain subject. But the way he smiled was my favorite, he looked as if he was hiding something, he was a mystery.

I wanted so desperately to figure him out. He was such a majestic person, even with the drugs constantly inside of his system.

It's what made him so enchanting.

Flashback

He led me into the girls bathroom, which was currently vacant. Cody turned on the sink and gently ran the water over my cut skin. Even with the careful gesture it still stung badly.

My face cringed slightly and of course he notices. He notices every move I make; even the slightest flinch. A warmth spread throughout my back and I realized his rough hand was lying there. It was actually nice; getting affection from someone, someone who seemed like they cared.

My mind backtracked, I couldn't nor shouldn't feel this way towards someone like him. It went against all rules and rights I had dealt with my whole life. But something felt good from being comforted by him and I felt excited, an emotion I've dealt with since we met. It felt like I could get caught at any moment and that felt so thrilling. I didn't have much excitement in my life and he was definitely a new addition to my world that made me feel that way.

"It stopped bleeding," startled by his voice I jumped back slightly.

"T-thanks." My stutter makes another appearance sadly. His chuckle resounds around the tiled walls and a blush crosses my face. I always make a fool of myself around him.

"It's cute when you stutter and blush." Another blush scatters across my untrustworthy face. He smiled crookedly and leads me outside of the bathroom.

It was silent until the bell rung and students came out of the classrooms. I had a class right now and still had to go across the dreary school to get to my locker.

My voice came out steady, "I have to go to my locker, thanks for the help." He smiled and I turned around. As quickly I had turned around he was in front of me. I jumped back and hit a locker.

"Sorry!", he rushed out. I just nodded my head and was about to leave when he caught my arm.

"I know you have to get to class, but I was wondering if you would like to go to a small get together my friend is having tonight?" My mind screamed "NO" but we both knew that I was not social and I knew my mom would be happy I was getting out.

"Sure", I said.

"I'll pick you up at 7," he responds.

"Okay," I replied. I was about to turn again when he jumped in front of me again for the second time.

"I never got your name." he said and for once my response came smooth, "Charlotte. Charlotte Lancaster." He smiled at my answer.

"Nice to meet you, I'll see you later Charlotte Lancaster." With that he slowly walked backwards with ease and smiled like he knew something I didn't. I shuddered slightly and my mind began to race. My joy was cut short when the tardy bell rang and I rushed through the hallways to my locker and my next class.

"Kind of you to join us Ms.Lancaster." my science teacher spoke. I muttered my apologies and walked to the back of the class, where for the next forty five minutes I knew I would be tortured by the boys. But I didn't mind because I knew I would get to see Cody later. The guy who has me lost in a spiraling circle only going down, but I didn't mind because the limited amount of time I'll have with him will be the best moments of my life.

This boy will be the death of me.

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Hey, how is it going everyone! Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. I hope you enjoy this chapter! Some new romance will be coming in soon ;) so look forward to that. Anyways, enjoy this chapter and I hope everyone is having a lovely day!!

~Cam