The bleakness of the walls make me dizzy more than I usually am. My withdraw makes my whole body ache and I can barely keep my eyes open. The pain is too much to take, all I see are black spots.
I throw up my non-existence breakfast and suddenly my head hits the cold tiled floor. Everything swarms around me and all I hear are the yells of the distant nurses. I feel a pain shoot through my arm and suddenly my entire body is numb.
Numb from all of the pain I've been through the past 3 months.
Numb from how rejected and unloved I've felt.
Numb from how ignorant I was and how I had subjected myself to the majority of hurt and loss I have experienced.
Even with the drugs pumping through my body all I can feel is the pain in my heart. Pain from betryal, hope and an empty void that can only be filled by one thing.
Flashback
My body buzzes from the pill a passing person handed me and I quickly chug down a drink that has probably been tampered with.
The alcohol just adds to my adrenaline. Everyone around me dances, oblivious to the enormity of how we're all under-age and too high to understand our own thoughts. But I'm not one to judge, I'm worse than all of them .
As I turn a corner I run into someone.
Cody.
He smiles lazily at me, high as shit.
"Charlotte!"
I reply in a monotone, too wasted to put any inflection in my voice,"Hey."
His response was slow, like molasses, "Having a good time?"
I don't bother answering, just walk away, I don't have time to deal with his crap. He quickly grabs my wrist and twists it under his steel grasp.
"Where do you think you're going", he doesn't ask but demands a response. I know too well to give into his authority.
I stiffly respond, "Get off me Cody."
The first time I have stood up for myself in my whole life; but even with that boost of confidence I know that he won't let go, he never does.
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I hope you like it. Next week on January 7, 2015 is when I will update the second chapter. Have a good New Years!!!
-Cam
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