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Unbeloved - Karlnap

| Not me literally giving up on another story just to write this one ☝️👁 Complete loss of motivation I'll just finish it later lol |

TW -- use of alcohol, pretty heavy angst
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P.s ., please comment on any spelling errors I made! I want to make this as enjoyable as possible :)
-Finn
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Karl hovered over his phone, reminiscently.

He was engulfed in random thoughts here and there. Remembering different memories, negative and positive.
His mind snapped back to reality as he looked down at his phone. Reading the contact info he put down for Nick over and over, Sappy Nappy. It was quite humorous, but not at that moment. At that moment, he was dreading the conversation that would ensue if he just pressed those tiny pixels.

He gulped as he tapped the call button. Nick picked up almost instantly, greeting him in a warm and happy tone.
"Hey, sap." Karl managed to spill.
"I wanted to talk with you, please- just for a bit," he continued.
"Uh, sure. What's wrong? You good?" Nick asked.
"Yeah, no, yeah, I'm alright it's just-"
Goddamit, Goddamit, Karl stopped speaking out of fear.
If I cried now he'd never forgive me
"Karl? Are you okay?"
"Yeah, uhm. Just. Yeah."
"Uhm, okay. I'm just gonna say it."
"I think- I think I might like someone and-"
Karl stopped talking again. Why the fuck do I do that? It's so easy to just talk. It's so easy.
"Really? THAT'S all? You coulda just told me man, I think that's awesome! Who's the lucky gal? Ey, ey?"

Karl just sat in silence. He wanted to hang up so badly, just cry himself to sleep or something. Anything but this. Why had I convinced myself Nick was... like me? I'm unnatural.. I'm-

"Nick, that's the problem, it's not a girl."
Karl paused for a little.
"Oh," he replied, anxiously.
"I.. you. It's you, it's you, it's always been you, I'm sorry. I don't know why I didn't tell you and.."
Karl's throat stung horribly after he said those words. He stared at his reflection with his phone to his ear. He looked like a different person, one he didn't recognize.

"Hey, Karl, uhm,"
Karl prepared himself for what he was about to say.
"You know I don't have a problem with that, right? I mean- I never.. I never thought about, y'know, dating you and- I'm sorry, but.. I think we should just remain friends," Nick spoke calmly, the tone Karl always knew, but couldn't bear it right now.
"Yeah, uhm. I agree. S-sorry if this like... makes our friendship awkward? I don't know. Sorry for bothering you." Karl's chest was suffocating. I can't breathe.

"Hey man, no problem, it'll be fine. Just know if you ever have anything to get off your chest, you can come to me. I'm here for ya, bud," his voice changed from calm to his default, happy self.

I can't speak. Karl simply just let out a quiet 'mhm'.
Nick spoke, "I love you Karl. I'll talk to you later, alright? Bye!"
"Love you."

[Switch to Karl's point of view]

My heart rate increased rapidly. My skull was pounding. Anything. Anything. Anything.

I looked around the room, and there was nothing.

I walk into my kitchen. I don't usually drink, but I keep drinks in case any friends or family come over. I grab a bottle, pop it open, and begin to chug.

I didn't know what was happening, but one drink led to another. My eyes because heavy. My hands had become inoperable. My knees were trembling. I went back into my room. I saw my phone light up.

Sappy Nappy
Karl, I'm really sorry. I thought about it and I feel like i hurt you. im sorry
7 more notifications from Sappy Nappy

I sat at the end of my bed and just curled up in a ball, regret seeping into my veins, finding its way to my throat. I let out a small sob, tears prickling at my eyes, falling instantly. This pain.
This pain was unbearable.
It shouldn't be a big deal, right? Just move on. Hell, Nick even said he didn't care and we could still be friends. It didn't matter.

Oh, but it did. It hurt so much. He knew he shouldn't feel this way, but his tears and puffiness definitely told a different story. He didn't understand his feelings.

He picked up his phone, and messaged Nick back.

Sappy Nappy
Karl, I'm really sorry. I thought about it and I feel like i hurt you. im sorry

Please, you don't have to forgive me, just talk to me

Karl please I love you I never wanted to hurt you

Karl

Karl please

I love you please answer

Please
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The name 'Karl' rung in my mind. Who even am I? Who even was I?
I'm not sane.
No, wait. I thought, I'm not sober.
I texted back absentmindedly.

                                       (Hey sapz dont worry im ok :)

Karl, thank god. Are you sure?? I don't know if I) believe that. ) 

(Yeah yeah yeah im fine haha just a lil dizzzyy

Karl, what? Are you sober? Are you sure you're) alright??)

I left him on read, and just laid down on my bed, wondering if I should be crying or laughing hysterically.
I decide to do both.

Eventually, I fall asleep while my phone and a glass bottle are at the end of my bed.

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Cliffhanger :) Pt. 2 soon. Hoped you enoyed so far!
-Finn

(Ruby here, that was v good had to put 0 changes)