Butterflies 🦋 chansung

an end

I ran away, grabbing Chan who was hiding on the bushes, waiting on a corner. My legs feel weak and I feel like falling down after running after just a few minutes.

"Ji-" He panted.

"Please, Let's get somewhere far first."

"I don't wanna get caught." I grunted out of breath with my hoarse voice. My legs are giving up as we ran. We rode a bus we don't knwo where to, We stopped at a 24-hour restaurant.

His face darkened when he saw me in the light. His eyes threatening to burst into tears, holding my hands, inspecting my bony wrist. He pulled up my sweater paws and he cried. He fumbled around me on the verge of tears. Examining my physical shell, holding me like i'm fragile. A glass threatened to shatter.

"What did they do to you?"

His face soured as he winced shaking, as his big hands warmed my hollow cheeks and messy hair.

"I'm sorry, butterfly. I am sorry." He apologized, visibly pained It hurts to hear him like this.

"This is all my fault."

"Hmmm-hmmm." I shook my head.

"It wasn't your fault, Chris." I picked up his hands and smelled it.It smells like home and strawberries. It's been just a week since I last held it. It felt like a year.

"They just can't accept that I am this."

"I didn't deny it to them."

"You should've! look at you!" Chan seemed frustrated, well even I was, didn't expect my lovely parents to turn so violent or treat me like I'm not human.

"I'm not ashamed of it. Chris."

"We all have our own time, You can always be open about yours when you're comfortable."

"Not telling them, will only delay the same results. At least I don't have to hide myself, I just thought, my parents would understand, they've always been supportive, I didn't know they'll lock me up and starve me for days." I exhaled.

Chris was outright sobbing.

"They excused you in school, that you we're ill and is in a bedrest." He continued kissing my hands and sobbed on it.

"Well, I look ill now, don't I?" I teased and laughed, Channie-hyung frowned, he always seemed vulnerable when it comes to me, he looks so soft. I can't focus at anytjing, I was just glad to be finally out of my hellhole.

I always appreciated that he doesn't have to hold this perfect image he always has around me. The food came. And boy oh boy, I cried eating the fried rice.

"What are your plans?" He watched me gobble up the food like a beast and didn't even bother eating with me though we ordered servings for two.

He refused, but not on my watch, I gave him a spoonfuls in between my bites and shared it. Big guy needs to be fed still. I'd feel better eating with him 

"Move somewhere, go to school and a proper job." I hurriedly answered sipping the crab and corn soup and focused on eating.

"Channie-hyung. Aren't you called too?"

"It's our video that was leaked." I stared at him blankly.

"I'm fine. My parents didn't believe it. Even if I said it was me. They laughed and told me it was a good joke."