Best summer of my life / sapnap x reader

chapter 2

y/n pov

I was just scrolling through Twitter before I checked the time again.

Damn still only 8 am. Niki won't be up for at least another 3 hours and I'm hungry and bored. Maybe we have some groceries left. Wait let me check.

I make my way out of bed after thinking about that. I walk downstairs and open the fridge. Although I know we never really have something eatable at home I still have a little bit of hope but as usual, the fridge was empty. The only things that are inside are a lemon and one slice of Pizza.

Niki must have ordered something yesterday I thought.

I also check the cupboards. Maybe some ghost came in here last night and magically filled everything up...well yeah no they are also empty. It would be too good to be true.

"Damn it" I said.

I walk up the stairs and to my room again trying to make no noise, so I don't wake up Niki.

I decide to get dressed and go for some grocery shopping. I put on my new light blue summer dress and white sneakers. I brush my hair and style my hair into beach waves with my curling iron. I do my skincare routine and put on a little bit of concealer and some mascara. I grab my keys, purse, and phone and put all of them into my bag. I head downstairs put my AirPods in and left our house.

I shuffle my throwback playlist and start to think about all the memories I had with these songs. My 18th birthday, my graduation, these all are days I somehow was happy and didn't think about what will happen tomorrow. I walk not really knowing where to go cause normally Niki always does the shopping since she's the one of us that has a car and a license. I also never really left the house since we moved in 2 years ago apart from going to school and instantly going home after it.

I stop near a lake. Swans are swimming in the water and I could feel the cooling wind in my face. I've realized that I've never been here before.

"I never knew it could be this beautiful outside our house." I sigh

I take a short break just standing there and admiring the lake. Everything seems so peaceful and calm. I take a deep breath before I continue walking to the supermarket I spot in the distance.

I enter the supermarket and immediately go to the fruit section to grab some raspberries. I love raspberries, they're like my favorite food of all time and I could eat them every day. I also grab some pancake ingredients cause I want to surprise Niki with food when she wakes up since I have nothing else to do. On my way to the cash register, I also lunge for some snacks like chocolate and chips since we have literally nothing at home.
I but everything and go back home.

On my way back home I walk past some of my old classmates. I could already feel the fear in my stomach only thinking about the fact I have to talk to them. I absolutely have no intention in talking to them and luckily I also don't have to because they ignore me like they always did back in school. Sometimes I have to make sure that I'm not invisible because no one's ever talking to me. I look behind me and see them, laughing and cheering with their skateboards in their hands.

"How can they be happy?
Why can't I be happy?
Why is it so hard for me to be happy?"

A tear is rolling down my cheek the minute these thoughts pass my brain.

I'm always trying to be nice to everyone no matter how they treat me cause that's one of the things my parents taught me but it doesn't really work out I guess.

I didn't notice I'm still standing in the middle of the sidewalk, looking at my classmates, until a middle-aged woman who is riding her bike shouts at me:

"Get out of my way and stop daydreaming!"

I flinch and quickly move aside.

I continue walking home and after about 15 more minutes I put my key in our keyhole and open the door. I step inside, close the door and walk straight away in the kitchen and start to make the pancakes. I'm not really good at cooking and stuff but it's 10 am and I still haven't eaten anything.

After I finished making the pancakes I see Niki coming down the stairs.

"Goodmorning! Do you want some pancakes? I was just about to eat but now we can eat together if you want? "
I said with a smile on my face, proud of me knowing I made these pancakes all by myself.

"Goodmorning y/n and yes I would love some" Niki answered.

I hand Niki her plate and we sit down on the sofa.

"Omg y/n these pancakes are so good I didn't know you can cook" Niki said after the first bites.

"Thank you and yeah I didn't know that either.
How was yesterday's stream?" I answered.

"Amazing I had a lot of fun oh and btw Wilbur is coming over later we want to watch this new movie and after that, we are planning to play among us with some of our friends. You can come to watch us play as long as you're quiet so you don't have to spend the evening alone."

"sure" I said excited for the evening since this will be the first time I'm in the same room as Niki during one of her streams.

Although I'm really happy I don't have to spend the evening alone I'm also scared.
What if Niki wants me to talk to her friends?
What if I say something by accident and the stream notice me?
I mean they already know Niki has a sister but what if they all hate me?

Way too many things are in my head right now. "Nothing will happen" I say to myself so I don't freak out. I will just sit next to Niki and watch her and Wilbur play. That's it. I will not say a word and I will absolutely not talk to anyone because I don't want thousands of people to know how nervous I always get while talking to people and I also don't want to risk getting a panic attack in front of thousands.

This is my plan to survive the evening and nobody can tell me otherwise.

I mean if I do everything as I planed it nothing will happen....right?

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