HAVEN

Chapter 14

It has been almost 5 years since the last time he raped me, but I will forever be unclean, broken, damaged and dirty of all the things he did to me or made me do. A constant fear hunts me, he owns my body more than I do. I should have screamed a bit louder and fought a little harder and then maybe it wouldn't have scarred me so bad.

"stop!" I wailed "It hurts! please let me go" I pushed onto his chest

"Shhhh princess, it's ok. I am almost done" He panted.

"N..no please stop" I cried 

He pulled out of me and  stood up fixing his jeans. "I love you so much." he said and tried to reach out for me but I pulled away as far as possible, he left the room afterwards.The space between my legs ached and I could see bruises forming on my lower stomach. I lifted up the blanket covering my lower body and My heart dropped at the sight of blood.

"no, no, no please god no!" I whimpered and rushed for the bathroom. I grabbed the toilet paper, tearing some and tried wiping the blood off but it wouldn't go away. I was bleeding , he cut me and I was going to die. 

"What did he do to me " I panicked crying, my body was shaking of fear, I never felt so terrified, he hurt me.

He is still hurting me, even though he is nowhere near me, I can still feel his breath fanning on my neck. His heavy body topping mine and his hands groping my body. The constant pain in my chest is unbearable, I feel hollow and numb but the worst of thing of all is that I  hate myself more than I hate him.

I wiped away a strained tear from my cheek and sat straighter, I was in the car along with Liam and Harry on our way to the airport. 

"Haven, are you listening?" I heard Harry Say

"uhm yea, what?"

"I asked if you had a nice time,"

"you know I did " I grinned and he nodded in approval.

"We're here." Liam announced. He parked the car and then turned around to look at me.

"ready?" he asked and I nodded. 

"What do you think about Justine?" Liam asked suddenly as we made our way to the entrance. Harry had my luggage and was trailing behind.

"She's great" I answered, slightly smiling.

"great? just great?" 

"What do you want me to say? She is phenomenal!" I chuckled, running my hand through my hair.

"Ven, I am serious, I am thinking about_

"Oh my god!" I interrupted. "you're going to ask her to marry you ,aren't you" I rushed jumping up and down, grinning like an idiot.

"so I take it you approve?" he asked smiling

"YES! are you kidding? yes yes yes!" I answered and enveloped him in a bone-crushing hug.

"I am so happy for you" I mumbled into his shirt and I heard him sigh in relief. 

"Haven, let go of poor Liam, you're going to miss your flight" Harry laughed and I flipped him off.

We checked in my luggage and I could feel myself growing emotional. I don't want to go back, not when I have to leave them behind. My face flushed and I could feel my eyes becoming teary. I wiped my face with the back of my hand and sniffled.

"Don't cry Ven" Liam whispered and embraced me in a hug which I happily returned.

The flight attendant voice boomed through the airport signalling for my flight to start boarding. I sniffled and pushed myself away from him.

"I ne..need to go" Is stuttered wiping away my tears. I looked up and meet the caring eyes of Liam.

"Please don't cry, I will visit soon, ok?" he whispered and rubbed my shoulder comfortably. I nodded, too afraid to actually say anything knowing I would burst into tears. I gulped and lowered my head.

"hey," Harry said sympathetically and grasped my chin. I swatted his touch away, a quiet sob leaving my mouth.

"Haven, look at me" he spoke, stepping closer. I closed my eyes shut, not bothering to oblige. 

His arms cradled me in a bear hug. I shifted trying to push him away but relaxed at the feeling of his lips placing a single kiss on my neck. I grinned.

"You smell nice" he mumbled and I snorted, feeling my body relaxing.

(A/N:  I hope you enjoyed this chapter, vote/comment if you please :) Have a lovely day and thank you for reading my story <3 <3 )

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